Saturday, March 12, 2005
I'm freakin tired.And dazed.Why?Hehe, went to the campfire night at my ex-school.Nothing much, nothing great, really.Just seeing "kids" enjoying their first year in school. And some nothing-much-but-still-ok performances.
Hehe, hey I just went there to meet up with my juniors and teachers. I'm not there to see kids running around, enjoying themselves in school.I met up with old buddies, my "adik-adik" for that matter.But of course, they're now teens, and growing taller.Hehe, me now looking like juniors to them.Then I met up with my teachers, Mr Tan, the one teaching HEY for our class last year, and made fun of him.What sia, he told me he's not teaching HEY lessons anymore!And then I told him..."Its good lah you're not teaching HEY anymore.You teach our class makes me wanna...Lucky u did'nt continue on doin this." And then he pinched me!Haha, stupid rite, then I mocked him..."You are, act like girls u noe.Pinching people..."And then his eyes glowed and replied ah..."What did you say? You want me to act manly izzit?I can..." He raised his fist, like wanna start a fight like dat.I then said to him..."Cool-cool.Just jokin only lah..."Ish-ish, teacher acting like kids.Haha, I also met up with my first malay teacher, Mr Ishak.Ya, I still respect him, coz he's so fatherly to me.And we chatted..."Amacam skarang? Sekolah dah habis ade kerje tak?" I then said to him..."Ade lah, tapi contract dah habis.Kerje di Haig Road kat seafood.Skarang duduk rumah je tunggu kan skolah kat poly..."Ya, he's such a nice teacher, he's even a friend to my grandfather lah, they used to be colleagues.Dats why I and Mr Ishak quite close,hehe...
I dun really miss this school.But I miss the people who changed and raised me up from Sec 1 and 4.I did'nt come there just to be with my friends.But I have unsettled things I would like say to my teachers and adik-adik.They still remembered me, and do missed me!Walaupun ku sudah keluar dari sekolah ini, there are those who remembered me for being a great friend, and brother.I'm happy bout them being glad seeing me and said..."hey Yat!Kau datang jugak!Dah lama tak jumpe, kau nie kenape tak gi skolah jumpe kite skarang..."How I wish I could, I do miss all of you, but you guys have to continue studying.I want all of you to do great in your studies k...
Argh, and I have'nt gotten over this thing.Ya, this RELATIONSHIP thing. It made me so miserably hurt the whole night, but U feel as if nothin had happened.AND even had the cheek to call ME.I think its not totally your fault, its me all along.I should have known all this. Siapalah ku ini, untuk mempermainkan perasaan orang.Ini bukan kali pertama, tetapi pernah juga ku terima hakikat ini. I'm not really mad about U meluahkan isi hati mu terhadap ku, to me its nothing.BUT I'm angry when you try to compare yourself by saying that..."there are other girls that are suitable you,Who am I to offer you?"U reminded me of HER, and sounded like HER.I'm starting to hate people who lowers her self-esteem. Alasan MU cukup munasabah, I appreciate YOUR honesty.Ya, you're being TOO HONEST to me...Saying sorry isn't enough for me, I dun care whether you're mad at me after saying this.Becoz I cared for you only as my SISTER.I"m just there by your side just so that you won't think of HIM anymore, so that U have someone to be with.Nothing more. And after all this, I can't forgive myself.Thank you for everything, you helped me a lot.One day I' ll repay U.I think its best I dun see U anymore.Terasa juah diriku dari dosa begini.Maafkan lah diri ku, aku lah segala penyebabnya...
Till then, May God bless you, Wassallam.
was rockin' on
Saturday, March 12, 2005 and they said.. 
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