Ascendancy

Friday, December 30, 2005

The spirit of Jemaah

This past few days, I've been praying at my cousin's house, and practicing jemaah together with my other cousins. And datuk as our imam. But sometimes, when we're teasing and joking around, we'll be talking about datuk's bloopers during our Jemaah prayers. Yep, and its damn funny I tell you. Well, sometimes people do make mistakes. But my bro, being his own heartless self , will sometimes make a big deal out of it. With a bit of humour too. Like when I Qamat the previous day, and made a pronounciation error, he made a big deal out of it. Like totally! That was also the time I was damn sleepy man. The worst was when he cheekily teased," Mase tu datuk bace doa, pastu tertidur. Orang macam nak backstab ajek datuk nie. Lambat sangat.." Hahakz, and we laughed our ass out. And ya, even if it means datuk being a bit "nyanyuk" sedikit, he'll make A BIG DEAL OUT OF IT!!

And I love Camp UP!! It was a total waste that most of them who did'nt came and we only got like a day for it. I LOVE MY OGLS MAN!! They rock ok. And I'm looking forward to Camp EAGLE, I wanna be an OGL next year. Insyallah...

I'm missing my long hair real bad!! I'm having an NS kind of hairstyle right now, just to save money so that I won't cut my hair for the next few months. Maybe a year? Hahakz, so smell ya guys later. Wassallam.

*Alucard*
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Wednesday, December 28, 2005

I'm feeling better...

I guess...I'm starting to move on a step at a time. Now that I'm ok, what I'm worried about is my own cousin's condition. Not mine. Being by his side always, I tend to skip some of my daily schedules now. Like taking care of my sister, or maybe out studying with my friends. Or going out with my friends for an outing. Tapi Alhamdullilah, he's fine. He does'nt stare at the walls and mourn over the lost of my late uncle. I noe, its kinda hard when you lose a father. Let alone, when I have to see your own family member suffer at an early age. And I'm starting to appreciate my family more...after I lost my dear uncle...

I've a new responsibility. Maybe one day, I'll fulfill my uncle's dream. To start his own bazaar. That was what he always hoped for. And he always looks forward to it, even if it means not getting one for next year's Ramadhan. You will always be in my heart, abah...

And I'm starting to lose grip on something else in my life. Love. Something I had always not consider, and never will now. Not that I'm still not through with my past love, but I'm just not ready yet. I want to achieve my dreams and career and also have a stable life, seeing both my family and myself happy first. Then, I'll say that I'm happy. And ready. Coz for my next girlfriend, I want her to be luckiest and happiest girl ever. Well, Insyallah she will...

Hahakz, feeling so tired but yet I've got so many things to blurt out. I would like to thank all my beloved friends for their condolences for my late uncle. I'm grateful for everyone's care and concern, May God bless all of you. Wassallam.

*Alucard*
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Saturday, December 24, 2005

Kau pergi Jua...

Kau pergi Jua. Seorang insan yang sayangi telah tinggalkan dunia ini ke ahirat yang kelak. Ku panjat kan doa kepada arwah Abah moga Tuhan meletakkan nya ke tempat insan yang beriman...

I've no mood to talk right now. My life has been shattered just by losing someone as dear as my uncle. As I kissed arwah's forehead this morning, I thanked him for giving me everything. A life. A job. And a world full of laughter. Only God knows how much good deed he has done to my life, from the past till now. I really am speechless right now. He was like a father to me. I would be lying if I were to say that I did'nt cry for arwah. It was the worst cry I ever had in my entire life. Losing him was never what I've expected, not now..not so soon...

And now that you're gone...Abah. Everything will change. Not only will I be missing you, everyone in the family will sorely miss you. You are the greatest uncle every child wishes for...

I've got nothing to say for now...even as I'm typing this entry...my eyes just can't stop swelling in tears...

Al-fateha...

Wassallam.

*Alucard*
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Wednesday, December 21, 2005

My body, my life...

Man, I skipped class..again. Coz I'm having this stupid diarrhoe that always happens each time I went out for an outing. AND IT HAS BEEN HAPPENING TO ME TWICE! And I'm getting sick of having this terrible stomache that can't seem to eat food everytime I go out with my friends. And it totally sucks...seriously...

But then again, I enjoyed last night's outing. Went out with my secondary school classmates. And its damn fun man. Eating and pooling and drinking. Why so fast?! I wanna spent more time with my brothers man...and my old friend karthig...WARGH!

I'm doomed for now. So many assignments to hand in, but so little time. Hopefully, I can finish it on time. Now I'm at home rotting hoping that a miracle will happen to me. Like, doing my shukudai(Japanese homework) or my semestral project.With a "healthy" stomach of coz. Urgh...it still hurts...

Wakaka, but I'm looking forward to my one week holiday! Even though its like one week, I seriously need a break! Then again, I'm also having this post break condition, like skipping class and all that shit...hehez...

So smell ya guys later, Wassallam.

*Alucard*
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Friday, December 16, 2005

It IS another new day after all...

Man, being in DMD class WITHOUT JP is boring. Especially when I seriously needs his help. Like TOTALLY!

Missing my class so badly. Where the hell are u guys man?! I'm so lonely down here. And cold...XD

Will blog something more meaningful lah. I can understand how stupid this entry may sound. But I'm just killing some bloody time in lab right now. So smell ya guys later, Wassallam.

*Alucard*
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Thursday, December 15, 2005

Tomorrow is another new day...

Sometimes, I just hate myself for putting up a brave face each time I had go to school. Just so that I could hide my own personal problems and weaknesses...

But then again, I just love the sight of seeing my friends happy and laughing their hearts out in school. It gives me a sense of belonging and a deeper appreciation to myself and my friends...

Thinking positive is always harder when you keep on recalling about the past experiences who've been through. Things that made you grew weaker and depressed. And its so ironic that I've been helping my friends to stay positive. Constantly. Semester 2 is like a totally new semester, and I could start seeing their true self. Even I prayed for my family's and my love one's, those from the past and present, for happiness. But I've never in my entire life, been praying to God for my own happiness. But then again, I've realized that God is fair after all. That I don't need to do that. I've already been blessed with good friends who cared and appreciate me for who I am all along. =)

Wassallam.

*Alucard*
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Wednesday, December 14, 2005

The sky is falling!!!

Man, I'm down and out. I need a break. TEMPORARILY. I'm so tired I can't eat well this past few days. Maybe it could be the side effects of my previous diarrhoe. Or maybe its just that I'm not having plenty of sleeps at night recently...

Man, Chicken Little turn out funnier than what I've ever expected. Fish is cute!!! Could'nt get King Kong so end up watchin this movie instead...with a good friend of mine lah...

And I've finally got my hands on Roadrunner United's album with promo cd! Woohoo, I've been like searching it high and low just to get the album plus promo cd. And it totally rocks man...

So smell ya guys later. Wassallam.

P. S. A little bit of ammo...some water...and some chips...XD

*Alucard*
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Monday, December 12, 2005

Nippon

Man, I'm having this stupid diarrhoe today that I felt so sick I skipped two class. Actually, three to be exact. And it was so pathetic that I had to go to my house door back to the toilet at home coz my stomach was giving me such a pain I barely can't even walk a few metres out of my house. Alternately. I dunnoe lah, it happens like three to four times...lost count...

Was it the Sakae sushi or the cake that's giving me this ache? Man, alhamdullilah I felt better now. After plenty of flushing and "pushing". U noe what I mean rite?! And I had to go for Japanese make up lessons coz I've been skippin it twice in a row. Well, I just shit myself...in Japanese...isn't that ironic I had to bear Japanese food for its language and culture?! Well, whatever...

Wednesday, I'm gonna burn lotsa of "mana" for LAN plus two movies. Woah, movie marathon man. With my best bud rui qi. Gotta keep saving. And I still need to keep plenty for next tuesday's outing. With my ex-secondary schoolmates. Man, I can't wait! I miss you guys!!!

Akhirnya, ku terima hakikatnya dengan sepenuh hati. Ku melihat kebenaran yang nyata. Bagiku, sesuatu yang cukup bahagia melihat keadaan mu sekarang. Kebenaran yang memberiku sesuatu kemenangan. Doaku termakbul jua...

*Alucard*
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Saturday, December 10, 2005

Up-to-date

Today, I can't understand why I'm updating my blog's links and all those shit. Hahakz, guess I've been gone from blogging for a very long time...

Anyway, a few of my good friends are having their birthday's soon. So, a very good December to you guys. I mean...happy birthday! And to all to all those celebrating Xmas, A very good Merry Christmas to you too!!!

And ya, bout my recent answer for that "what is the most nicest thing a girl had ask me..." is'nt true lah. But then again, I LOVE TO EAT!!! XD

So smell ya guys later. Wassallam.

*Alucard*
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Wednesday, December 07, 2005

Movie Mania!!

Ok, I'm back after a week of hiatus. Actually, not even considered a hiatus. I just feel like calling it a hiatus from blog just for the fun of it XD

Anyway, I just wanna share a great experience I had with my Jurong Western friends. Went to catch a movie at Jurong Point. It was suppose to be at Orchard Cineleisure, to watch Just Like Heaven. The only time slot left was at 5 pm. But it's kind of weird when you're watching it with a guy? Erm...u get what I mean right?

So, we took a de-tour from Raffles back to Boon Lay interchange to watch AeonFlux instead. And apparently I was able to plead Luie to join us to watch the movie together. And she did in the end, but I had to burn more money coz that's part of the agreement...urgh...

It was ok lah. I mean the movie. One thing funny I noticed while I was in the cinema. That my friend Looi Chee kept on laughin while I was "dunkin" my Nachos. Coz I did it as though I'm like a retarded boy who just bought hot milo and biscuits for lunch. And luie seems to be closing her eyes whenever any "gore" scenes takes place. Even if she looks a little tomboy-ish, she still had this feminine side of her lah. And Looi Chee even got so "aroused" by some of the scenes I can almost feel heat under my arms, the left one to be precise(coz apparently he's sitting beside me on the left..). Its no wonder he brought a sweater with him, so that he could cover himself up with more clothings. And maybe people won't notice that he's feeling "hot" deep inside. I got nachos all to myself, and oh how nice it was munching it and both of my friends got so frustrated that I ask them to eat the nachos with. I mean its not nice lah, to eat alone rite? XD

P.S. What is the nicest thing a girl had ask me?

Dah makan ke belum? (Have you eaten?)

Why?

Coz sometimes I got aroused by her beauty I tend to get more hungrier! XD

*Slaps knee hard* Wakakakkaka....

I miss spongebob squarepants. Huh?! Spongeboob?! XD

So smell ya guys later. Wassallam.

*Alucard*
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Monday, December 05, 2005

To my friend...my dearest friend...

Sometimes, its not easy to get to noe someone. Especially when she's a stranger you can't get your eyes off. And the thing we had to face, is negativity thats clouding our very mind about her. The girl you just got to noe off. Whether she's angry that we're doing this, doing that. And feel so worried even though she's not even yours yet...

All we had to do, is to start thinking positive. Start thinking of your own position, rather than hers. To make it simple, just be yourself. Its all that matters...

Well, this message isn't for me, its for a friend of mine who's desperately lost in a world we call love. Maybe...I just wanna help him to de-stress up on love. I don't want him to to end up the same as me...

Wassallam.

*Alucard*
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Friday, December 02, 2005

Whats up with me...?

Man, I feel like just terminate this on-line diary of mine for good. After what a good friend of mine did something really bad by publishing a wicked post about her OWN friends about it. And how angry I am when she did IT publicly, when she could have just confront us instead and NOT by telling the whole world what she feels towards her OWN friends. And maybe, this misunderstanding can be solved in an ADULT way...

And I've finally come to my conclusion that I won't be blogging bout my personal life nor my feelings here anymore. Maybe I would be still running this blog, but use it in the purpose of just entertaining my friends or family who happens to be reading my blog. Forget about my own personal love life, nor any of my recent experiences or problems. Coz I had enough, that maybe people might misjudge my own opinion. And I hope this friend of mine read this entry, and think about what she had done to her OWN friends. That she had made her friends MUCH more angrier than what we could have felt towards her before. And after what you did, I can't even consider you as your friend anymore...How could you, I never thought you were like this...

Wassallam.

*Alucard*
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