Friday, February 25, 2005
Saturday, February 19, 2005
Haha, dunnoe why I'm so lazy to blog this past few days...How come sia?Hehe, anyway I was kinda busy...but of course not working lar.Urgh, if only I was'nt sick last week, I could have gotten the job as a pembakar satay you know.Now I'm a jobless-despo-emo-watever-you-call-it guy lar.I want to bakar satay man, so fun you know...
"cinta satay, makan ayam satay kambing...
Mbek,mbek,mbek..."
Hehe, of course I'm despo for a job now lar, I'm so bored sitting at home...and I took a course for Quran classes instead just to make my time now more meaningful and fulfilled.I'm kinda busybody lar actually, followed my mak to Quran classes.Hehe, at least can see all the Minah Tudung there(I like,huahua.No offence ar guys...).Haha, me wanna become Mat Alim now.Its good actually membaca Al-Quran balik semula, so long I katam I almost forget about it now...
Anyway, I just woke up from sleep just now, my clock now showing 2.40 A.M.Yeah, kinda late huh?I woke up from a nightmare, well lets say just a past memory.A past memory that came back haunting me, again.And now I could'nt go back sleep now, coz I'm scared..scared I'll be facing her in my dreams again.Why does it keeps coming back?What are your intentions dear, its been so long I've never see you, yet kau punya hati untuk menjelma di mimpi ku?Who am I to blame now?Maybe what they say are true after all...
"Walaupun jauh di pandangan mata,namun hatiku tetap berada di sisiku..."
No!I can't, I'm not going back to my old self.Its time I should start a new, I've got so many friends who do cared for me.Yet you're the one I've always think of.But there's no use of me crying over you anymore, bak kate orang, tangisi air mata jernih kepade seorang insan yang tidak mengenangkan diriku.Kau lah, cinta ku yang pergi...dan bukanlah salah ku melepaskan mu...
Anyway, cum Monday, there's a lot of people I'd like to thank, those who were with me from Sec1 to 4, and those I've forgotten but you're still a friend to me.So, expect a long one k, coz there are a lot of friends in my list that I've gotten to noe and loved from Sec 1 to 4.I hope my O's will be ok, even though I know I can't hope for JC now, I'm so freakin nervous alrite.Hopefully my specialist subjects(Core Geography and Bahasa Melayu...), can at least pushed me up.Oh God, give me at least a fifteen for L1R5, so that I could go to JJC,hehe...Well, it does'nt mean I came from a good class(Sec 1e2-2e2...), I'm clever ok.My best friend flopped his streaming exams and hit straight to class 3E5 the next year.I pitied him, hope he'll do good for his O's as well.He's my twin bro lar, in case you're wondering,hehe.And of course, to Amirah, I believe you can make it.Dun worry lah, you're smarter than me wat, your English's much more powderful rite?Ku berdoa kepada mu dan semua lah yang mengenal diriku semoga mereka berjaya dalam peperiksaan GCE O' levels mu.I'm thinking win-win right now, haha learned that in HEY lessons alright.Anyway, thanks for the free complimentary tickets ya, dunnoe how am I to repay you man...
Haiz, maybe I'll try eating my way to sleep, I'm so tired but I eyes won't rest.Till then, May God bless you, Wassallam.
Di samping itu, terimalah...
Sampaikan salam, buat semua
Salam terakhir, salam teristimewa
Kepada kau yang tersayang
Pada teman yang ku kenang
Pemergian ku ini, tak dirancang...
Usah bertanya, mengapa aku
Mengucap salam, terakhir kepada mu
Kerna waktu berputaran
Bimbang tak berkesempatan
Melahirkan kerinduan, terhadap mu...
Demi sebuah kenyataan
Yang amat menyakitkan
Aku yang tidak berdaya
Hanya terserah kepadaNya...
Salam akhir, salam yang teristimewa
Bersamanya, ku bermohom keampunan
Melaluinya, ku beri kemaafan
Kepadamu...
Andainya aku, punya waktu
Masih ku ingin, mengulangi semula
Saat indah bersama mu
sayang tak berkesempatan
Abadi kan saja, salam ku di ingatan
Salam ku yang terakhir...
Song by the late Sudirman
Song Title:Salam Terakhir
Kepada semua sahabat-sahabatku yang mengenal diriku, semoga berjaya dalam peperiksaan mu alrite...
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Friday, February 25, 2005 and they said..
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Thursday, February 17, 2005
I feel so pissed off, my life just f***ed up alrite!Haha, why?Well, firstly I missed the APM at Suntec City alrite, my ticket gone to waste!It cost me a bloody $38!Yeah, and actually I was supposed to go with my EX(pardon me ar, dun wanna tell you who, hehe...),and my former band-mates.Actually had to meet her first at Jurong Point, and spent time chatting there before we head to City Hall and meet them.Turns out, my condition worsen the next day!And I had no choice but to allow her give it to her brother instead(since he wanted to go so bad, but did'nt bought one...)Well, at least it does'nt really go to waste eh?Argh!Then, I could'nt go to TP open house with my 4E3 friends coz I'm still having this cold.Urgh, what could be worst eh?Its all because I was infected by my stupid brother lah,hehe...
Anyway, at least I had fun while I was at home.Why?Hehe, firstly tahun nie APM mengarut sia!Lucky for me, I did'nt went to Suntec to watch APM the previous nite.But then, Bhumiband won three awards!Congrats!Well, met them before in one of the kugiran competitions, but of course was'nt that close to them.But still...kau lah kebangaan muzik kumpulan tempatan di Singapura,haha!Continuing on, hehe, before that I just want to apologise for those Fiknatiks or fans of Taufik, but his performance on APM that nite was...SENGAU!!!Haha, truthfully he was, I dunnoe bout you all lar(maybe some are tone death...), but my bro and father agree seh.Hehe, man surely memalu kan seh, for us Singaporeans...coz all the various artistes from other countries might be thinking..."is this really the Singapore idol?Why so sengau?"Tular, lain kali kalau dah tak leh angkat lagu rock tu, jangan pakse diri.Lagu Ramli Sarip pulak tu, hehe.You're soul man, do your soul tingy k?Rock buat rock, rock never dies k,hehe...But I did'nt got to see my boo sia!Boo-hoo...not Siti ar, she's my old flame.So who?Hehe, Shahila lah,haha!Man, she's so anggun, so sexy and so young!You're my wishlist now k, to be my future wife,haha.I think she's 15 or 16 now, could'nt remember,hehe...
So I spent time the whole day at home from Friday to Saturday.Do what?Surprisingly, I did'nt noe why my vocal chord felt so wide man, so I practised and vocal jammed in my room for both days!Wah, talk bout being sick ar, still can sing siol!Haha, at least my nenek visited me both Friday and Saturday consecutively.Biase lar, dah cucu kesayangan kan..."Mane cucu nenek yang cute nie!Mari sini nenek cubit pipi Apat(dats my nick...)"And I can't believe she still does that man!Nenek, Apat dah besar lar, tak payah nak cubit-cubit pipi nie semue,hehe...but she fed me porridge and bacaan doa selamat untuk memulihkan diri ku supaya sembuh.Ku terhutang budi pada nenek ku yang penyayang, semoga Tuhan membawa nenek ku kepada tempat insan-insan yang disayangiNya di akhirat nanti, insyallah...
Ok lar, I still having mild coughs...hopefully I'll get better tomorrow so that nenek won't visit my again,haha.Till then, may God bless you, Wassallam.
Di samping itu, terima lah...
Tega ku berdiri sepanjang malam
Mengintai dadah langit yang tersergam,
Demi meniti doa dan impian
Di saat melintas sang kelodan,
kau di sisiku sentiasa
...Julia
Ku dambakan kita hidup bersama
Sepasang kekasih teman yang setia
Asal kan kau sudi ku kan bahagia
Kerna ku percaya cinta kita
Satu tak terpisah
...Julia
Biar malam mengundang hujan
Hadiah kan jutaan rintangan
Niat yang asal tetap kan ku kotakan
Hendaknya hajat ku kesampaian
Kau di sisiku sentiasa
...Julia
Ku dah coba hidup tanpa diri mu
Terbukit diri ku haru biru
Mudah hilang punca dan arah tujuh
Fikiran meracau dan menentu
Emosi terganggu
hariku kelabu...
bantulah aku, bantulah oh Julia
Katakan lah pada ku, kau juga sama
sama merasa, seperti ku Julia
Kita menjejak erti cinta yang sama...
Song by Exists
Song title:Julia
Kepada sahabatku, Julia...hehe
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Saturday, February 19, 2005 and they said..
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Wednesday, February 16, 2005
Man, I'm so sick todae, very very sick.And I've caught a flu too, all thanks to my bro lar, passing on his germs to me.Now, I feel so weak, so frail, just like a veggy(hehe...).Atchoo!
Anyway, today I just wanna point out something, that I got to see this past few days. I got the feeling that teenagers today are so desperately in need for love.Why?Well, people always asked me..."still single?dun ever intend to start a relationship?"Honestly, I really love to if I could, but for now, I rather just live life as the way I like it now, to be single and carefree.Say what they want, do what they want, it doesn't matter to me, nothing's gonna change my decision.And I don't even bother seeing young couples hugged and kissed their way in shopping malls or in the streets of Singapore...
Its not that I've given up or wat, but I'm just waiting.Waiting for the rite someone to be my soul-mate.I dun care how long it'll take me, but I noe I'm doin this for a good cause, and reason.I've read the papers too this past few weeks, dan ku kecewa yang ramai remaja dari golongan kita orang Melayu, sering terjebak dalam kes seks luar nikah dan berkahwin mudah.Apakah orang Melayu skarang tidak sejati sebagaimana yang telah dijadikan teladan oleh orang tua kita selama ini?Mungkin mereka tidak mempunyai kasih sayang yang sepenuhnya dari ibubapa kita, ataupun mereka dibuai gelora nafsu, sehinggakan tidak takutkan dosa dan Tuhan?Tetapi, ini tidak boleh dijadikan sebagai satu alasan, kerna ramai remaja kita punya pendidikan yang secukupnya sekarang...
Yang terjebak mungkin tidak kenal atau memahami ertinya cinta. Mereka sering melihatnya hanya di mata, namun bukan di hati.Mereka juga tidak mempunyai hati yang penyabar, dan berputus asa jika berlakunya suatu peristiwa antara kedua-dua pihak.I'm not trying to say that teenagers today are spoilt, or brainless.But sometimes, we have to really understand the meaning of love.
And that is why, I'm not so desperately in need for a soul-mate, for now.Even though there are those that I nearly fell for, that sometimes I see her more than a friend or someone who wants to be one, I noe I had to reject or forget bout this.I'm trying to be as patient as I can, and I noe it will be worthwhile.Trying to start relationship now is truly something suicidal to me, kerna ku harus mengorbankan jiwa dan masa ku kepada kekasih ku nanti.Ia akan membuah kan dosa yang berlipat gandanya dengan kelakuan dan adegan tidak senonoh antara kedua-dua pihak, yang bukan cara sebagai seorang mukmin.Not only that, I just can't play with it...
Anyway for now, I'm happy that I have girl-friends that cared and always by my side. I want to enjoy my life to the fullest, dan tekun beribadah kepada Yang Maha Esa.Kerna hidup di dunia ini sementara sahaja, akhirat lah akan kekal seabadinya.Friendship after all, is important for us teenagers now, and I cherished it with all my heart.I now understand and appreciate my friends.For now, my deepest appreciation will be my family.Kerna ibubapa ku lah yang mendidik dan membesarku sebagai seorang insan yang solehah(not quite lah...), dan ku bertekad untuk membelas budi baik dan jasa mereka.Suatu hari nanti, pintu hatiku akan terbuka jugalah untuk seseorang, Insyallah...
Well, that's all for now.Kalau ade tersilap kata atau bahase yang tidak menyenang kan hati, sudi lah maafkan lah diri ku.Kerna kita sebagai insan yang sering membuat kesilapan, harus saling bermaafan.Tomorrow, I'm to Jurong Point after my Friday prayers, with someone.Hehe, lets say just goin out k?Anyway, hope I'll be well for tomorrow, may god bless you, Wassallam.
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Thursday, February 17, 2005 and they said..
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Tuesday, February 15, 2005
Wah, I'm so damn tired today, so tired that I'm feeling too emotionally down alrite.Yeah, dats my weakness, when I'm tired or stressed, I'll get so emotionally annoyed, I can't think straight.And that nearly cause me a broken friendship. But I've tried learning from the past mistakes I did throughout my entire 16 years in this life, and to take this as a learning lesson for me, I'll get better in this someday...
Anyway, I accompanied edmond(my tall accomplice...) to Lot 1 today to return his job belongings.Well, his contract had long been expired, and he's quite happy bout that.But I pity him coz his life has always been lonely...haiz, bro u need to live life alone sometimes.You can't always depend on others, luckily I'm your loyal friend alright.I'll never bring down a friend, even thought how much he or she hurts my feelings...
Alright, enough talking bout that.Then later I went to Marina Square and meet up with my sister-tak-bleh-angkat, and also my dear friend Amirah, to watch Constantine.But first, before that I've to meet this someone at City-link, hehe...won't tell you, just an old friend lah.Well, I almost lost my way there u see, but luckily for the quick intervention of my sidekick, Saiful the Heartless, I managed to reach GV marina scratch free.Of course, my cell phone bill's gonna be affected alrite!And man, the weather was so hot at that time.And to make matters worst, I nearly followed this person whom I thought was Amirah to the undergorund passage leading to City-link.Yeah, talk about desert heat, it really took its toll man!
So how's the movie?Can, not bad and satisfying for those who loves movies bout the cult or demons or anything to do with the revelation or God.All in all, its just a movie that packs with great special effects and a lot of eye candy.But the plot of the original story is however affected and changed.If some of you might noe, John Constantine was actually born in Newcastle, England.So, why go as far to Mexico?Furthermore, John is not blonde, surprisingly, as he was in his own original self.Its hard to tell for Constantine, given its obvious change of appearance and nationality. But as long as the show is visual stunning and breath-taking, no one will ever noe...
And don't be surprised when someone walks into the movie theather and mentions..."I CAN'T BELIEVE THEY TOOK NEWCASTLE OUT OF HIS ORIGIN!"Hehe, you may never noe...
Till then, May God bless all of you, Wassallam.
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Wednesday, February 16, 2005 and they said..
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Sunday, February 13, 2005
Well, its been a while.Kepada cinta yang pergi ku, Shafinas, if you've already read my blog, and if you're reading this, I just wanna apologise to you for bad-mouthing, mencaci dan menghina mu di dalam blog ku ini. Ku tak berniat tuk membuat demikian...
But if you're someone who've I might have been mistaken, just blog hopping, then go ahead, I'm so sorry I've treated you unevenly.Namun sesungguhnya, Tuhan sahaja Yang Maha Mengetahui...
Ok, anyway I just wanna share my experience(again...) while I was away for an assignment on the 14th of February, that's on Monday.This time, however, I'm a waitress! Ah... no, I mean waiter!(hehe...).Yeah, its held at Macpherson CC alrite, and it was a function again to celebrate the CNY.Haiz, so many Chinese New Year function eh?Wat ever it is, my job being a waiter on that day was man damn tiring, more tiring than being the assisstant chef i used to at my workplace! But the worst was me serving the plates, utensils and bowls ALONE before the guests arrived, yeah no thanks to all my friends!Hehe, joking only lah...Anyway, reinforcements arrived hours later, but by then i think its already half the tables are done.Yeah, good timing guys!
Let me see, altogether there were seven waiters and waitresses(that includes me...), I could have gotten more, but none came.Well, thats what friends are for rite?Hehe, continueing on, they include my cousins and their own friends.See!They manage to bring their own friends, me leh?Anyway, boss-man then gave instructions to each and every one of us, and I've to manage table 13 and 14, tell you bout this table later eh.Argh, there's this two sisters, Shazrina and Nazrina, they're so...HOT!!!Hehe, one wears tudung the other does not.Like they said, satu minah tudung, lagi satu minah terlajak, hehe...
8.00pm
By then, the show has already started.But where's most of the guests?Because some of us were quite agitated you see, holding jugs of orange juice for these guests, yet only a few came.Its only when its in the middle of the program that they started to arrive.Oh yeah, bout the show ar?Boring...why?Most of them were performance by the senior citizens themselves!No babes, no minahs, only a few...Argh!There's only two performances, one was a malay dance, one was a dikir barat perfomance.And ya, bout the dikir barat, I think its the Juara. If some of you might know them, they're our ex-yusoffians group, who also comprises her brother.Ya, her brother alright, if you noe what I mean...
Aiyah, wat for rite? I'm the waiter here man.So, ok bout the serving...lets see,(in random order ah...) Tom Yam Soup, Teriyaki Chicken, Sweet and Sour Fish, Scallop soup with broccoli, Nasi goreng, Chilli prawns, satay and dessert.I think that's about all lar, is that a lot or what?But its served for ten hungry guests, so does'nt matter to them lar...
Wah, I don't think I'll considered being a waiter again, you have to think fast and act fast. Man, and I was so nervous you know!Coz there's this one table, there's this indian girl, so pretty man, like Aiswarya Rai!And then, I think her mother, said..."Boy you're shaking.Are you ok?" Then there's this other guest, she's a malay women also said..."Bang, muke cram je, mengigil pulak tu."Haha,and my faced was flushed to the max man! I have to keep on smiling at them after that, so paiseh...
Anyway, we waiters and waitresses have our own mission, to be SCAVENGERS!!! Yeah, we act, think and eat like vultures and that day. So when one table does not finish their foods, we eat the remains! Haha, why?Coz no one haven eaten any food before coming down to Woodlands CC, that includes me! ANd my God, most of us preyed on the teriyaki chicken.Its juicy, sweet and just plain delicious alrite.My table have three left, so lucky!Haha, then shared it with my cousin...
And there's this incident, haha its damned funny man.There's this guy, he's stuck in the toilet behind the backstage, where there's our "base" is also located.Hehe, and you noe what this guy do to seek help?"Hello...hello...hello..."haha, at first me and my cousin thought someone was calling, but then realised he's really stuck! What a guy man, and then it took minutes to get him out there.At first, my uncle said to him..."Ar, pusing itu lock pelan-pelan ar"Coz its lock from the inside, surely u can't open it from the outside rite?Luckily, he survived, scratch free all thanks to the supervisor there who had the key to the lock.Hehe, I just wanna go there and said to him sia..."Show's over, the CC's gonna close soon you noe....bye"Haha, evil Alucard strikes again...
Anyway, now I'm still darn tired alrite, and confused.I hope its not her alrite, it can't be you Nas.Somehow, you've never contacted me anymore, how can I possibly noe its her...and I've never met someone in the name Shafini before.Oh God, please give me some courage and truth around her.Coz, I still miss her, and love her...
Till then, May god bless all of you, Wassallam.
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Tuesday, February 15, 2005 and they said..
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Wednesday, February 09, 2005
Hahakz!What better way to end my job contract, I'm so darn happy rite now!No, VERY HAPPY!!!There's so much freedom for me rite now, I dun feel so emotionally stress anymore.Hehe, and I've sworn never again to be too mat too emo(even though I'm already labelled as one.Damn you Izzah, you LMT, Little Miss Tudung...hehe).Huh, what sia!I've been too stressed up this past few weeks, and I was so emotionally down then.Ok lar, nak tahu tak kenape aku happy?Tahu tak kenape?Aku pun tak tahu,huahuahua...(Yat, enough is enough ok.Lame...)Fine, there's a lot of things I'm happy bout k...
Anyway, in today's long entry, I'd like to share my experience while I was away for a function cum CNY!Man, its darn fun alrite, totally ecstatic! Ok, watever it is, lets start from the bottom, don't wanna spoil the surprise eh?Roll tape...
3.00 pm
It was a Friday afternoon, so after my Solat Jumaat, I head straight to MacPherson.I don't even remember where it was actually held lah, coz the organizers were the ones who picked me up from a merc!Wah, talk about VIP, ME!Hehe, anyway, then I was escorted to the backstage( not actually one, coz its a function under a huge tent..) and they introduced me to this three intrumentalist.They were so hand...hand...aiyah, I'm a guy, for God's sake.Ya, truthfully they were tall and handsome.They're also in their 20's, so I was considered the junior there.Then we talked, and I got to know all three of them.Ok, they were Zak(actually Zaki, but dun noe why lah..), he's the drummer, and there was Ubi( I dun also noe why the name.Maybe makan banyak kerepek ubi, hehe...), he's the bassist and then there was Hermin, he was the guitarist.And while we were sitting together, they were also with their spouses, and there I was sitting alone, sorang.Takde temanita ke per?Hehe, tak kisah...
Anyway, we discussed about the type of song we would like to play on that very nite.Remember, classical but cheery?Yeah,darn it.We brainstormed sampai pusing kepala dibuatnye, when Zak played something so familiar to me.It was the intro of That Thing you Do, dan ilham itu tetibe je mendatang.HAH, kite buat lagu Siti!Huh?No, not Siti, I mean Exists, but the song name is Percayakan Siti.And my God I tell you this guys were at first so astonished sampai mulut pun ternganga besar,hehe...
5.30 pm
Ok, the song was confirmed, but we had only three more hours left!Man, but this guys were just too professional, better than my former band, they were so prepared. They brought along their files and musical notes, and I only managed to bring my chrome tuner, iPod mini and voice recorder. So much for preparation eh?Hehe, but at least I had memorize the song, it was my expectation to sing an Exists song anyway.And while I was warming up my vocals, nafsu ku diuji.Haha, there were also dancers, Girl dancers there, and man they were so...MENGANCAM!!!But Zak was the crowd pleaser, wooing all the ladies there.(unfortunately he can't flirt, he brought along he's spouse wat...)Then, the organisers brought us the costumes, it is damn TRENDY!Red, full suit and long-sleeved...
Everything was in place, but our band were still up on stage trying to jam things up before show time.Maklum lah, we did'nt even went through rehearsals, it was so sudden.It took us three agonizing tries, but by then my throat is already too cramped.Argh!I'm so damn nervous, dun even remembered how many glasses of drinks I drank to cleared up my throat, it felt so dry...
8.30pm.
Show time!And there we were with all these beautiful dancers(aaahhh, paradise...hehe) and some hip-hop dancers backstage.The show was a joint organisation by the malay community and the chinese senior citizen committee celebrating the CNY alrite.But I did'nt noe who's the guest of honour though, ar I think he's from the ministry of home affairs I think, I THINK lar!!! But there was no Taufik on that day,hehe...Ok first, some intro by the host(a chinese artiste, but I dun remember his name...) and a malay dance by the dance group from a secondary school, aiyah forget wat school lar!Anyway, there was the usual lucky draw and finally our show!I mean, OUR SHOW!Ha, so this is it...we went upstage, set things up, and damn I was so nervous I almost dropped the mic...
Zak then fired things up, he's drumbeat was off the chart man!Like, TOTALLY!!!And then Min and Ubi continued, until the vocal part...First, I was sheepish, my voice sounded soft.But, I built up my momentum, and ranged my voice. And the guests went wild!Some even hit the dance floor, and I did'nt even realized that until after the performance!
After our performance, I still had to sing, now a song called belaian jiwa at the end of the show.Hehe, too bad I did'nt sang on behalf my class durin grad nite.It was a day I'll never forget man, never...
11.30pm
After the show, the organisers and my band-mates praised me.Wah, never had praises before, I'm so flattered.But then, I also got to meet this someone who approached me later after those praises.At first I ws cautious, she walked towards me as though I had owe her something.Next thing I knew, she sat beside me!Argh, cair I...
She introduce herself, her name was Julia.Ah, Julia?...
Ku dambakan kita hidup bersama
Sepasang kekasih teman yang setia
Asalkan kau sudi ku kan bahagia
Kerna ku percaya jiwa kita, satu tak terpisah
...Julia
Hehe, and I did'nt noe she was also one of the dancers for the malay dance!She was 18, like...18-16.18-16, anything strange?I'm 16, she's 18, and she's way to senior to me alrite.Tapi, kalau dah ade jodoh, sape tahu kan, hehe...She's also schoolin in ITE(west) Clementi!So far ah!And then she said she once saw me in one of the kugiran competitions, she even said she loved my voice!Really?!And there I was, maintaining my cool-ness, maintain...She's testing my nafsu alrite, man and her beauty, so anggun...
We chat for a long time, and I remembered some of our conversations...
Julia:when you always sing, I noe you were thinking of someone.You always let your heart out rite?Who is this special someone, is she someone you deeply love?
And I was so dumbfounded when she asked me that!How could she knew? Could'nt be my mother, or my sister, or ...ok put it simply, I can't lie to her rite?But, you guys might have known, that someone, she was after all my inspiration, whom I've forgotten but she'll always be in my heart forever.Of course I said...
Me:Just don't talk bout it k...
I would'nt wanna talk about it wat! But thankfully she understand my feelings.After our long conversation, she agreed to be my other sister-tak-bleh-angkat!Haha, and she even ask me out this Tuesday with her friends and their boyfriends to catch a movie!Hehe, not a date ar, just goin out...
Then it was time to say goodbye.Man, I so gonna miss this three temporary band-mates, they were so awesome, they were like brothers to me.But, like they said, life has to go on.And for the organisers, I would also like to thank you, for giving me a great function to perform, I truly enjoyed it.Guess I was wrong in accusing all of you after all, it went perfectly, even though last minute.And for Julia, hope we'll meet this Tuesday, can't wait...
Well, that's one long entry.Hehe, I'm so glad I finally can rest. Haiz, too bad I've no date cum this Valentine's day, that's on Sunday and Monday.Well, will Tuesday count then?Hehe, I'm so jealous of Kian Yong, he's got two dates consecutively, Sunday and Monday.What a lucky guy...
That's it for today, I'm kinda sick actually, my throat's abit sore.Till then, may God Bless You, Wassallam.
And to all the happy and loving couples, Happy Valentine's Day...
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Sunday, February 13, 2005 and they said..
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Tuesday, February 08, 2005
Cock-a-doodle-do!Happy Chinese New Year, Gong Xi Fa Cai!This year's the year of the rooster, but what's so great bout being a chicken?Hehe, I'll tell you its characteristic, personality and the type of person it makes in you(in case you're a small chick, or a mother hen, or a beautiful rooster...) to those born in the year of the rooster for today's blog entry.So hop on and have a great Chicken Run!(hehe...)
Characteristic:They are passionate, resilient, patriotic, industrious, courageous and protective.However, roosters are also conceited, blunt, rude, bossy, aggresive and impatient.
Anyway, roosters are hard workers, shrewd and definite in their decision-making, often speaking their minds.Because of this, they seem to be boastful.They like to put their cards on the table and respect those who did the same.Roosters love to mix socially, they can also be dreamers, flashy dressers and extravagant(hehe, bapak ayam namenye tu...).They love to attract attention and admiration, and tends to be angry when someone tends to be in the spotlight(jealous lah tu...).What ever, despite being melodramatic, they are exceptionally practical, logical, and have excellent powers of discrimination.This leaves them with high standards of excellence which at times frustrate others. Although they attract many suiters, they are loyal, level-headed partners make a commitment...
The following occupations best suit the rooster personality:
-Actor
-dentist
-insurance agent
-opera singer
-Armed force personal
-Financial advisor
-musician
-dancer
(source taken from:http://www.ofesite.com/spirit/chinese/rooster.htm)
That's all for today, hope you hot chicks(hehe...) out there finally know your own personality.However, overall its you who'll make who you really are(what the hell am I saying...).Anyway, maybe I'll be out from blogging for three to four days, coz I'm goin to stay at my uncle's also my boss-man house the following day, that's tomorrow.So that I don't need to go to and fro from Jurong to Kembangan to work.Also, I maybe too busy for the following days, there's a function goin on, catering services plus more seafood stall work(haiz...).And to my dear friend, Amirah, I still wanna have a chat with you, there's something important I need to tell you about.Till Sunday, I'll be as free as a bird, and I can finally rest...
Till then, may God bless you, Wassallam.
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Monday, February 07, 2005
Yeah, heard me right.She managed to forgive me on time just before she left to Johore.Hai, and she's staying there for about a week.And I was hoping I could send her an e-mail again(but I still did...).At least now my debts are cleared, I don't feel unforgiven anymore.And this wounds have finally healed....
Argh, and I still have'nt found a suitable song to play!What the heck, the organiser says make it a country song, or something classical but something cheerful.Yeah rite, cheerful...have you listened a classical song that's cheery?You're just making me more stressed out right now, and I'm not sure whether I can make it on time.You did'nt tell me where its venue is, gave me a proposal and the date.Which organization are you in by the way?My throat's kinda coarse alright, it's been a long time I did'nt range those chromatics.And it hurts, deeply...
I'm so stressed out this Lunar New Year, talk about prosperity.Man, I need someone to talk to right now, my bro's gone to Johore too to celebrate New Year with my family members there.And I'm sitting here all alone finding a solution...
Well, to all my chinese friends, I wish you all a prosperous Chinese New Year, Gong Xi Fa Cai, Hang Bao Na Lai!(hehe...).Till then, may God Bless You, Wassallam.
Di samping itu, terimalah...
Dinginnya angin malam ini, menyapa tubuhku
Namun tidak dapat dingin kan hatiku, yang kau hangatkan...
Terasa tercabarnya kelakian ku ini, dengan sikap mu
Mentanglah aku ini insan kekurangan, senangnya kau mainkan...
Siapalah ku ini, untuk memintal buih
Yang memutih, menjadi permaidani
Seperti mana yang tertulis, dalam novel cinta...
Juga mustahil bagiku, menggapai bintang di langit
Menjadikan hantaran, syarat untuk milikimu
Semua itu sungguh aku, tak termampu...
Silap aku juga, kerna jatuh cinta
Insan seperti mu, seanggun bidadari
Seharusnya aku, cerminkan diri ku
Sebelum tirai kamar aku buka, untuk mengintai mu
Song by Exists
Song title:Mengintai Dari Tirai Kamar
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Saturday, February 05, 2005
Well, I'm back after a day break from blogging, and I've just been released from my workplace earlier then scheduled.I'm so emotionally and physically stressed out right now. This wounds inside of me just would'nt heal, but hopefully it will, once she's forgiven me.I hope all of this will finally be settled so that I could continue on with this life of mine, peacefully...
What the heck!My iPod mini removed all of its components, I mean all my music files, including my vocal coach!And i've been assign for a function cum this Chinese New Year!I've long did'nt stretch this vocal chords of mine, and my chromatics are way out of tune.Moreover, I'm under a dizzy spelly of work pressure, I can't seem to find the time to train my vocals.I've got plenty of homework to do right now, luckily boss-man released me earlier...
Ok, first I've to find a song suitable for a Senior Citizen's committee funtion.Yeah, what the heck rite?But I've heard they're also inviting some special guest( I think I heard the name Taufik...), but hey! Do you think he'll come down for a lowly function organized?Fine, but at least now I've got to chose my own song to play!Is'nt that great?Well, I can't play a sentimental song(even though I'm so emotionally hurt rite now...), I need to choose a more cheery song.The song have to also be suitable for my vocal range, and I won't be picking Iklim anymore(because the notes are way to high for my maximum range...), but I'd like to try Exist man, because i kinda like their songs right now.Argh, somebody out there care to help me pick a song?
But first, I need to find the vocal notes for the chosen song, you know F minor and A, in case you're wondering,they're the alphabetical notes representing a particular musical tune. Then I've to practise hitting those right notes, and also memorise the lyrics.After that, its recording time, and this could sometimes take hours to complete.I need to record my own vocal in my voice recorder.Then transfer it in my audio mixer software in my PC, mix it with the song(which I've also removed its original vocal beforehand...) and listen to the whole song to check whether my vocal blends in perfectly and hopefully all the notes are well hit.
Haiz, who says being a vocalist is easy stuff?What's more, I've disbanded my former kugiran group, but thankfully I still have Aie(my bro...) with me.But still, I really need you guys to help me!Man, I miss all the fun we had, where we would go jamming sessions and celebrate those competition joys together.Well, I'm all alone right now...
I think I'll be in bed by twelve, hopefully I'll be able to finish this on time, so that I could go to work by morning tommorrow.And to my dear friend, I hope you've read my reply, and understand the real reason.Yeah, the REAL reason, which I've sent you via e-mail privately.It's something I've long kept inside of me.Hopefully, kau boleh terima hakikatnya, and my reasons.Till then, may God Bless You, Wassallam.
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Friday, February 04, 2005
Ya, memang sah lah, I've made someone hurt, and she was once my best friend.For Seha(MiQ), thanks for your words,tetapi ku memang sudah sedia menerima ini semua, apatah lagi, I'm not goin to change anything, kerna memang benar apa ku katakan itu. Ku selama ini memang terpendam hasrat sayang kepada Izzah, dan ku berani bersumpah atas nama Allah yang semua ini memang benar.
Kepada sahabat ku Izzah, ku tahu kau tak mampu menerima hakikatnya, maklum lah, you never saw me coming.Mungkin kau tidak pernah merasakan yang selama ini ku sayang kepada mu kerna ku insan yang serba kekurangan, and I've got nothing in me that satisfies you.Sia-sia sahaja ku menantikan saat-saat nya, namun semuanya hancur musnah.Do whatever you like as you please Izzah, samada kau nak menghina ku, mencaci ku, atau menyakiti hati ku, terpulang lah.Biar sahaja diri ku dihina oleh mu,seorang insan yang ku mengelarkan sebagai sahabat ku.Ku tidak mahu mengatakan apa-apa kerna pertelingkahan ini, coz things will just drag on until someone just give in.And I'll be the one yang rela menyerahkan diri, kerna ku tahu ini hanya kan membuah kan dosa sahaja...
Dan Izzah, ku tangisi air mata jernih apabila membaca blog mu.Yes, I've cried after reading your blog, senyum lah selebar nya Izzah, kau lah juara nya.You like it now don't you?Ku menangis kerna ku telah menyakiti hati seorang insan yang ku sayangi, kerna ia benar-benar bukan nya niat ku.And, I've never expect someone whom I regard as a friend would say something like that to me.Adakah perenggan itu menimbulkan hasrat benci di kala hatimu, sehingga kau tergamak membuat demikian?
Sekali lagi Izzah, ku memohon kemaafan kepada mu, kerna peristiwa itu.Jikalau kau masih enggan, ku tidak akan memaksa mu.Sesungguh nya, aku lah insan yang dihina, yang hidup nya menderita sahaja.Tetapi ku tahu, Izzah bukan seorang insan yang begitu kan?Dan, untuk apa kita berjumpa sahaja during the results, kan lebih bagus kite tak berjumpa selama nya, lebih bahagia kan kamu...
And to think I could get something for you and Amirah apabila ku ke Rock Opera nanti, batal lah nampak nya.Sayang nya, orang dah tak sudi.Ku fikir selama ini kau bukan seperti wanita-wanita lain, tetapi ku salah sekali lagi.Kau tiada keistimewaan nya.Dan lagi satu Izzah, yes you are better than Nas for me, but I'm just not good enough for you.Ku harus berterima kasih padamu, kerna kau telah membuat luka yang lebih mendalam di hatiku, that sorrow came back.Bukan sahaja ku mendoakan kebahagian Nas selama ini, tetapi kamu juga ku tidak ketinggalan untuk kebaikan mu.
Selamat tinggal sahabat ku, Izzah..
Sekian, Wassallam...
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Thursday, February 03, 2005
Well, I've decided to blog earlier today, way too earlier coz tonight I'm not gonna be free...I'm also goin on hiatus for two days.Today's entry is goin to be a special one, not only this will be the first time I'll be doin this, but it might hurt someone's feeling(again...) and also mine.
Sekian lama, sebulan berlalu, risau di hati yang selama ini terguris di kala hati ku, sudah tiada.Sayangku yang selama ini terpendam untuk dirimu, sudah hilang. Tertutup lah novel cinta kita, hati ku sudah tidak kesampaian untuk menerima diri mu sekali lagi. Bukan ku tak sudi, tetapi ku tidak punya hati untuk meneruskan hidup ku yang kian menderita ini. Ini lah satu-satu nya cara ku dapat mendingin hati ku yang panas disiksa kerna cinta. Namun seanggun bidadari, hanya sebagai diri mu, ku sedar hati mu yang berubah sahaja sudah menguris cinta ini.Tergamak kau mencabar kelakian ku, kesabaran ku, sehingga kau mempermain kan perasaan dan diri ku.Selama ini, ku menyiksa diri ku untuk menyintai diri mu, senang nya kau membuat ku sebagai insan kekurangan, dan hati ini sudah tak termampu untuk meneruskan semua ini.
Namun, silap diri ku juga kerna menyintai insan seperti mu.Kalau dari dulu lagi ku tahu begini rupanya kamu, ku sudah lama putus kan percintaan ini. Hati ini masih terluka berdarah tak terhingga memikirkan dirimu.Wajah mu, nama mu, masih terkial-kial di kala hati ku ini. Mimpiku sahaja lah tempat ku idamkan saat-saat indah ku bersama mu selama ini.Namun, mimpi tidak akan menjadi kenyataan, ku harus hentikan semua ini.Surat-surat cinta mu masih ku simpan di laci ku, ku tidak menyentuh nya walau sesaat pun.Ku seharusnya mencerminkan diri ku, kerna ku sedar diri ku ini sebenarnya insan yang dihina.Ku terpedaya dengan kata-kata manis mu, yang sekarang ku sedar hanya bertopengkan racun yang berbisa.Maafkan diri ku, yang selama ini telah menumpang di sudut dunia mu.Izin kan ku pergi dari sisi mu.Walaubagaimanapun, ku tetap mendoakan kebahagian mu, kerna ku masih mengasihani dirimu...
Dan pada semua yang selama ini tersalah faham dengan diri ku bersama Izzah, biar lah ku menerang kan nya segala-gala sekarang.Sebenarnya, ku telah berjanji bersama si dia yang ku akan menjaga dan menyayangi Izzah sebagaimana ku sayang kan nya.Namun, jika dia tergamak memungkir janji-janji nya, mengapa harus ku masih teguh kan perjanjian nya?Janji-janji tidak akan kekal selama nya, dan ku sudah membuat keputusan untuk mengabaikan nya.Ku sedar selama ini ku sudah manjakan dan membelaikan diri Izzah sehingga melampaui batasan nya.Izzah, maafkan lah diri ku juga, selama ini diri ku lah yang bersalah, ku tidak sanggup menerima semua itu, biarlah kita sekadar sahabat.Ku tidak mampu untuk menyintai sesiapa sekarang, biar sahaja diri ku sendiri...
Sekian,Wassallam...
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Friday, February 04, 2005 and they said..
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Wednesday, February 02, 2005
Ya, I'm here and welcome to my first games review update(hehe...).Anyway, before that, my house is now on fire!There's a lot of flame goin around here actually, but man...it's hot in here!Hehe, no lah actually what I meant was my parents are back to what they used to, and that's they just can't stop booming those loud music. Well, my family is very enthusiastic when it comes to music, and the reason for this?My iPod mini... yah its the light of my family(hehe...)Mak dengan lagu Siti and Misha Omar dia, abih tu Ayah ngan lagu Iklim and Slam and Aie with his Slipknot and Statovarius, this thing sure creates total havoc in my house!
So what is the pick of the month!(drum roll...)Its none other than Fable from the developers of Lionhead studios only for the X-box console.Well, this game totally rocks man!!!
A small step for a boy...a giant leap for humanity
In this game, you start of as a hero in a popular folklore and fables-a small, an insignificant boy living in the town of Oakvale, a hamlet that is cut away from the harsh realities from the world beyond.But until one fateful night, when evil in the form of bandits took away everything from you, your home, love and things you cherished in one fell swoop.Luckily, you where saved from the bandits if not for the timely intervention of a wizard called Maze.You were then assign as a member of the Heroe's Guild, where your true story begins...
Ok, so what's so great about this game?Well it is a rope-playing game, and the graphics is way cool.You are what you will become, and you can play your hero's way to become either evil or good in this world.Unlike any other games done before,you will start growing horns or have red eyes if you're evil, or having a cherubic glow about you if you grow in a righteous state,Moreover,the hero goes through life showing signs of aging, like sustaining wounds as result of hard-fought battles, the scars wil tell the tale.
Overall, Fable is a fantastic game that satisfies the needs of all RPG fans out there. Furthermore, with a lot of eye candy, wonderful graphics and eye-catching fighting scenes, what could have been more better than this? Rating:Die-die must play(8/10)
So, do whatever it takes to get this game man; borrow, steal, lie, cheat(hehe...).Ok, time to go, hope to see you again real soon. Till then, God Bless You, Wassallam.
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Tuesday, February 01, 2005
Well, got back work, just in time to watch my favourite anime series, Hellsing.Oh my God, its the final episode!!!Man, I'm gonna miss this series a lot, especially Celeste Victoria!Man, I love u, bagaimana harus ku meneruskan sisa-sisa hidup mu tanpa mu(hehe...) Hanya bidadari sahaja sebagai ganti mu, but too bad, you're only a cartoon character(haha, laugh out loud...)Anyway, we'll just see how the ending goes, whether its gonna be a happy one or just a hang-up(hopefully not...)For now, I've to disband this hellsing institution, coz like I said, Game Over!Change it to destiny.Why destiny?Hehe, its got something to do with the song...
Anyway, I was actually gonna make a game review today, but I'll just skip it for tommorrow. Haiz, still gonna learn a lot about this blogging man.But its ok, I'm a fast learner(hopefully...).In the meantime, I just wanna thank my sister-tak-bleh-angkat, Amirah Kamil, for helping me out in adding music into my blog(hehe, nice eh...).She sacrificed her time from sleeping just to help me out in this(and it took an agonising hour to master it....).So to Amirah(if you're reading this now...), I love u girl, terima kasih banyak-banyak atas pertolongan mu dan moga Tuhan mencucuri niat baik mu, Insyallah.Thankfully, I succeeded, yes, in adding a song into my blog.Hehe, big deal huh?
So sorry for today's entry, its quite short.But I'll promise you I'm gonna make my game review by tommorrow, so don't forget to blog my site eh.Not gonna spoil the surprise now.Till then, may God Bless You, Wassallam.
Di samping itu, terimalah...
Berikan lah jawapan, huraikan lah simpulan
Biar tenang jiwa ku, setelah kasih lama berlalu...
Tidak mungkin ku lupa, perjanjian kita
Di bawah rumpun rambu, di kala bulan sedang beradu...
Mengapa terjadi, perpisahan ini
Di kala asmara, melebar sayapnya...
Mengapa kau pergi, di saat begini
Di kala hati ku, terlukis nama mu...
Kalau memang tiada jodoh, apa lagi nak ku heboh
Aku malu pada teman, pada semua...
Rindu, rindu serindu rindunya
Namun engkau tak mengerti....
Pilu, pilu sepilu pilunya
Namun engkau tak peduli...
Malu, semalu malunya
Namun apa daya, orang tak sudi...
Mahu, semahu mahunya
Namun apa daya, orang dah benci...
Berikan lah jawapan, huraikan lah simpulan
Biar tenang jiwaku, aku rindu...
Song by spoon
Song title:Rindu serindunya
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Wednesday, February 02, 2005 and they said..
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What's up guys, I'm feeling better already.Sorry bout yesterday ok, maybe I'm just being too un-manly(hehe...).Anyway, what's wrong crying man, do you think boys don't really cry or spill out their emotions? Ok here's the deal, the fiction: A boy crying is a sissy, girly, wuss or whatever you girls or guys call it. But actually the fact is: a man who doesn't cry is actually a sissy or coward himself.Why? Because like I said, crying is healing, crying lets you spill out your emotions, your memories, healing the heart itself in the process. That is why, boys tend to be more stressful than girls, simply because they keep or store these emotions in their heart too long, and eventually they go crazy, because the pressure deep inside is just too much to take it.Believe me, I'm a guy, why should I be lying to you right?
Anyway, guess what?I got a new Mp3 player!!!What could have been more worst, it's an ipod mini!!!I just got it today from the delivery man, you should have seen my expression, I was totally ecstactic!Who would'nt be, this player's the hottest and coolest there is.(aren't they the opposite?You know, fire and ice?hehe...) So what's so great bout this ipod mini?Lets see...it packs a whopping 4GB memory space(talk about super memory), its sleek/slender, connects to itunes for quick and easy transferring of music and it runs on rechargeable mobile batteries(you know, the ones you used for cell phone batteries).And also, Izzah's gonna love this baby man, coz its awfully pink!Yeah, you heard me, PINK!!!But it's no ordinary pink you see, it comes with this silvery surface, so it's quite pretty lah.
Man, I just wanna show this baby to Amirah lah, so if you're reading this girl, don't be mad or what k, of me being just too arrogant with my new baby here.After all,I got this for free man, after subscribing for Starhub internet line.I'm just way too excited right now, can't wait to test this baby of mine.First gonna put my fave songs...lets see, Arrow, Exists, Slam, Gersang, Ekamantra, Umbrella...Oh wait, don't forget Yngwei Malmsteen, Stratovarius, Alcatrazz, Michael Angelo...
Ok, what ever it is, whish all my chinese friends out a happy and prosperous New Year soon.Till then, God Bless you, Wassallam.
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