Ascendancy

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

H-T-M-L...

This is my story. Coz I'm currently doing lab work called HTML. And it totally sucks when you don't even understand the whole concept of HTML and the codes and all that shit. Well, Lecturer is still babbling non-stop,more to like a tortoise rather than a machine-gun kind of pace. While I'm busily scratching my head off, hopefully I won't drop a strand of hair. Or maybe when I've finally found that inspiration I needed for this wicked assignment.Then this "itch" may finally come to and end. I dun understand why I called it wicked in the first place. I think the wicked thing about HTML is the lab itself. Its so damn cold in here right now. And bloody hell I gotta use a server-protected internet from school too. Good thing my intention of using a free web server is NOT for something mischievious, I only wanted to download something from the net. So that I can stay awake by listening to some songs I uploaded from my multiply...*sobs*

Okiez, gotta finish my assignment as soon as possible. Its so call my "break" and I'm typing this "no-link" post just to kill some bloody time. And its kinda strange that I'm slacking my way to school from morning till now. That is so not me man. After which I can enjoy a game of DotA! Woohoo, I love JP. Not becoz of himself, but his lappie XD

So smell ya guys later, and it's been a long time I've not said this out...

May God Bless all of you. Wassallam.

*Alucard*
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Sunday, November 27, 2005

Urgh...

My body is aching all over. Guess this is what happens when you don't exercise too much. Or playing your first game of soccer and badminton in the same day...

But...

things are getting pretty good for me this past few days. Well, I'm starting to enjoy life more than I use to. So how bout you? Had a nice day today?

Wassallam.

*Alucard*
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Thursday, November 24, 2005

So sorry..

I'm so sorry thing went out pretty damn shit today. First I was kinda happy to at least spent time with my friends, but things did'nt go the way I wanted today. I was called up by my lil sis school for something urgent. That was the time I was already back at home after having some great time with my classmates playing dotA. And then, I even forgot my handphone after I rushed out of my house. Just becoz my sister is in urgent need. Which made me a miserable guy rite now..

That I told my friend Saiful to wait at Causeway point to catch a movie. And even Auntie Rin. But I totally forgot, forgot that I had to be there by seven. And by the time I reach home at 8, all I could say to my friend was sorry...

I'm really sorry, sorry that I upset u guys. I hope u can forgive me for all these, I totally forgot. God knows what might happen if things did'nt turn out like this. I really have no mood rite now...I'm so, angry for myself...

Who am I to blame? Myself or my sister? I'm so confuse...I noe I'm at fault...

Wassallam.

*Alucard*
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Wednesday, November 23, 2005

Harry Potter and the Goblet of fire

Oklah, Auntie ask me to play love songs, so I'm playing this instead. Hahakz, this song gave so much memories lah....

Anyway, I'm currently late for school, and already skipping a module but still on my computer typing down nonsense. Hahakz. Whatever lah. Been watching soccer last night. And ya, Man U had a draw. Damn sleep lorh...zzz...

I'm finally gonna step into a movie theather once more. To watch Harry Potter lah. Zzz. Hahakz, with shi yuan and her fren and her sister. Wah piangz, triple date siak. I'm like the bachelor liddat. Budden, I dun really care lah. As long as I gotta watch the movie can already. I'm still and avid movie-goer and I'm really missing watching the movies. Budden again, the past as always give me so many memories to it...

Only time may tell...

So smell ya guys later, Wassallam.

*Alucard*
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Sunday, November 20, 2005

What the fish..?!

Actually, I kinda like yesterday. And all of that feeling was just one of my own. It was fun. Though the downside was that many, I mean most of our schoolmates can't make it...

Budden again...

The upside that even those who were'nt with us last year, was a pretty much a great bunch of people. Especially Ahmad. He made my flu go away by making me laugh like crazy! Thanks man, gua caya sama lu!!! Rock never die!!! Hahakz, next time kalau jalan raye kite kutip die lagik ah! Dah macam anak kutip gitu...

All in all, I'm feeling a bit the better. My flu is getting milder day by day lah. So, maybe tomorrow I'll be abe to walk to school at ease! So smell ya guys later. Wassallam.

*Alucard*
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Saturday, November 19, 2005

Maybe...memories...

I don't feel like going jalan raya with my ex-schoolmates from secondary school...

Dunnoe lah..

Felt like something bad is gonna happen...

Macam tak sedap hati gitu...

Budden...

Can't just always follow what your heart says...

Then again...

I'm having this stupid flu and maybe that is why I'm feeling liddat...

It happens ok...

So...

I dunnoe..

I'm still considering...

and its still 9 am, mind you...

I can make it in time if I've made my decision...

Which now I've not, duh...

So smell ya guys later...

Wassallam.

*Alucard*
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Friday, November 18, 2005

I'm loving it

I'm having my first repeated module( digital media and design) lab session rite now. And I'm loving it. Hahakz, simply becoz JP's by my side helping me. Yet, again. And ya, learning is a breeze! Woohoo...

But too bad I'm not in either Sharil's class or eye candy's. Sad case. Though my so call new profound classmates are enthusiastic in learning. Hehez. So smell ya guys later!

Wassallam.

*Alucard*
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Monday, November 14, 2005

Miss...

One thing...

I'm sorry for my past entry...

guess to emo lah..

and I'm missing my classmates 0506 a lot!

One day don't seeing them can die man!!

hahakz, ok smell ya guys later. Wassallam.

*Alucard*
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Sunday, November 13, 2005

Kenangan lama...

I just watched this drama on TV3. Its so damn touching. About a wife who lost her children and husband in a tragic accident. And then she even lost her newborn child during birth too. She went through hell, with lotsa of trauma and hallucination. But her parents and in-laws kept her spirits high. They kinda like persistently ask her to face reality, and wake up from her "world". And one day she did, after going through months of pain...

And it gave me such a big impact. What if one day, I'll never see the ones I love the most? People like my nenek? People like my...parents? I cried when the I watch the whole drama. It kinda relate to me...somehow...

Like how I lost my twin sister during my mak's birth. Something went awry and, the doctor failed to save her. But luckily, the other one survive. She was Fatin. And she was 3/4 brain dead. But I cherished having her till now. I treated my little sister, as wat all brothers would do. And I was thankful that I had a little sister...

That's becoz before both of my little sisters were to be born, I was the one who was ecstatic. Coz I looked forward to having a little sister. So much that sometimes, I would talk to my mak' s "tummy" just to see how well my sisters are doing inside. And I was so happy that I kept talking about having a little sister so badly to my nenek...

But then, kerna takdir dan Qadaq dan Qadar, I did'nt get what I wanted. Kinda. But a little sister, I did have. And ya, it made me so traumatized to lose the other one, I felt sick. And it's so ironic that it's on the eve of Hari Raya Aidilfitri. I was down with the fever, budden it was more like a special day to me. More like, memorable. Coz my cousins came to visit me on Hari raya. I was so traumatized and sick and all that, they recited Takbir Raya together. And I mummured along. With nenek by my side, membelai rambut ku. That was why, I'm still grateful of having good grandparents and cousins with me...

And one thing. Now that I've thought it all over. I've finally realized that. I did made the right decision to let go of my ex. The only thing I did wrong. Was lying to her about the truth. The one thing that made me regret all my life, was letting her go. Just so that I could take care of my family, and my grandparents. Just becoz I failed to be the good guy she wanted me to be. And that I'm no superman. I can't take on so many roles. Being a good boyfriend. Being a good son. Being a good grandson. And being a brother. Somehow, I was so pressurized, I blew it all. And now, up till now. I still missed her...a lot...

The only thing that kept me going, was seeing my little sister. Who would take care of her if my parents are no longer able to work? Sebagai insan istimewa. Now I need someone who could support me. Who can say she loves me becoz she trusted me...

Ok lah, maybe thinking of all these is too much for me. Not when I'm having a hard time both in school and at home. I guess, I need to visit my nenek next week. She's the only one who could give me all the strength I need in these world. Someone I consider as both my friend and girlfriend. Yang dah lepas, biar dijadikan tauladan. But I would'nt say I would forget what my ex did. She was so caring. She was so supportive. So loving, I could'nt picture anything more. I thanked her for everything she has done to me. Dan ku mendoakan demi kebahgiaanya selalu. But that one thing blew everything, when problems start to seep in. So much that decided to let her go...

Man, I'm like repeating one whole incident again and again. Maybe its time I should start a new. Now, she's like a stranger to me. Someone I can't even relate too. Even the other day I met her. It felt so different. Haiz, watever lah. I think I'm going through a state of depression rite now. Temporary. It will go away, its just my own feelings. In self-denial. So smell ya guys later, Wassallam.

*Alucard*
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Tuesday, November 08, 2005

Boos and Yeahs...

Yeah, I finally gotten my timetable! And worst still, I'm joining Saiful's group in semeseter 2! ZZZ-ness. Hahakz. And guess what?! I also got Japanese for Third Language! Woo-hoo so happy man today...

Man, I would like to apoligize to all those who may think I was kinda distracting and irritating in lectures or classes today, I am really sorry. COZ, I was so happy that I've finally receive my schedule. And I was so glad I gotta see my friends again! Hahakz.Unlike yesterday, I was so moody man. And one more thing, I would also like to thank the lecturer who assign us or planned timetable. Coz he gave me and JP a Third Language for complementary studies even though we got very low GPA marks( I think...). Hehez...

So now I don't have to sit at fastfood canteen like yesterday and played dotA in JP's lappie. And now, I don't have to worry bout not getting to school coz I've got a new timetable! But, I was kinda unhappy that I had to drop discreet maths coz there's no more room for both me and Jp to take...

Tapi syukur alhamdullilah, most of my doubts are cleared. And now, I'm trying to be more serious in school work. Just like how I treated my everyday work lah. I don't wanna flop anymore modules sewenang-wenangnye. Coz it'll be much more troublesome for my second year later...

And then, me, Rui Qi and Luie had been taking a cab for two days straight after school. Dunnoe lah, guess we're just damn sleepy. And too tired to walk all the way to the MRT station. Lazy bumbs. Hehez. Budden we shared our money just to take cab lah...

Oklah, I'm pretty tired this past few days. And I'm still having fasting syndromes lah, like not eating too much during lunch or not eating any at all. It'll take time. So smell ya guys later, Wassallam.

*Alucard*
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Wednesday, November 02, 2005

Raya kan menjelma...

Man, I feel so sad when bazaar had to be officially "closed" last night. It was so heart-warming you know, when the customers visits you on the last day of bazaar and wishes you the very best for hari raya, even when we're working. And ya, my regular customer did came and greeted me. And I did'nt know why I had the enthusiasm to talk to my customers today. Maybe I felt that the spirit of Ramadhan is fading, and Aidilfitri is coming. And ya, even to Cik Ani, my favourite roti john makcik. Hehez, she gave me so much roti john last night, plus popiah basah! Wah, thanks alot Cik Ani! And ya, Saiful got Kebab's number sia! Dunnoe how lah, budden this girl named Mida syiok pat die ah. I dun mind, as long as his not two-timing sudah lah...

And I feel so guilty not celebrating Tze Wei's bdae too. It was yesterday, and he felt sad I could'nt join them. I really am sorry bro, I'll make it up for a great present for you ok! Hehez...Anyway, wish him a very belated 18th bdae. You're the best buddy I ever had, thank you so much for your company. I really appreciated it...

Finally, tiba masa nya kita beraya. I think I've got the time to settle my own family affairs now, since work is no longer my first priority. As in, mungkin raya, I wanna minta kemaafan dari pihak-pihak berikut...

My family. They've been my sole provider. And I noe, I've done so many sins to them. I really love my family...

My grandparents. They've always been a listening ear to all my sorrows and problems now. And since I've no longer had anyone to rant about my problems, they've always been there when I really need it the most. I missed them so much, especially my nenek...

My cousins and relatives. They've been like my second family. And ya, what ever they need, either help or just a company, I'll try to be there when they needed me the most. I really missed my cousins back in Pontian Kecil. Udin and Farhan. I just wished I could just spend time at kampong, beraye die kampong lebih meriah berbanding di bandar. Budden, school's starting next week...

My friends. For all those things I've done. Kalau ade salah-silap, misunderstandings and fights...

And lastly, my ex. I noe, its weird. But I realized I'd done so much sins to her. Kalau boleh, melutut meminta keampunan. Becoz of me, things around her change. And maybe, I realized she could had been more happier with her ex. All I could do for is always giving her pain. And ya, ku berdoa semoga hidup nya kan menjadi lebih bahagia nanti...

I dunnoe lah, things had been ok for me, I guess. I think I should be happy that hari raya is coming. Not spending time thinking of all these. While my parents are doing just fine, so does the people around me. Oklah, kepade semua muslimin dan muslimat, Selamat hari raya Aidilfitri yang akan menjelang! Mohon maaf zahir dan batin. Wassallam.

*Alucard*
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