Tuesday, January 30, 2007
Saturday, January 27, 2007
Alright so I've not been into updating-mode for probably a few weeks now. I've, rightfully so, been into a nervous shut down for a comparable time and I'm almost to a brink of non-existence in this cyber world. So pardon me for the lack of enthusiastic sarcasm(which can be somewhat bemusing) and some rather random posts that all you dear readers have been missing this past few weeks. I'm completely drained out, which is rather obvious from all those very long-winded project that's apparently been the cause of this very presence of mine in the so-call world of blogging. I've been missing some "quality" blogging(which I'm not so good at but apprehensively tried to actually make one) and I sincerely apologise for that too.
So the faucets been turn off for quite some time now, except for those few unreasonable leaks that I could come out with in these very blog once in a while (whatever). Not that I'm no longer keen to have a habit on updating my blog entries, but sometimes that lack of time and mood fails to comprehend so. But, if you dear readers insist in turning on this very "tap" of mine right now, I can honestly say that, all that'll be gushing out of this very mind right now are pretty much "project" based. My world typically revolves around them, maybe. But yeah, what I'm doing and thinking most of the time is all about the letter P. Which is, exactly stands for PROJECTS. It is downright irritating when one finds themselves shelved in between spaces where they're only constraint to time and datelines. Where they have to, like it or not, spare a few of their social beings to become half-zombies. I find it hard to believe it at first(rather find it amusing too) but I did have a few cases whereby I'll show no signs of emotion(especially that fucking goddamn smile) to the very people I love. Maybe, but I've been guilty of showing little or sometimes no signs of gesture whenever there's a possibilty that someone's anticipating a great "Hi" from you, or me for that matter.
Yes. Wicked it maybe, but I deeply regretted my actions through the course of this entire week. When it comes to stuff that I've so much hated in life(for that matter, studies and school and whatever that has to do with things that bores you) I can be downright insensitive. Yeah, maybe just a little, but there's a certainty whereby the brain just can't seem to be able to focus on pleasing everyone. For that matter. And there was this occasion, where I've to go through a state of nervous breakdown due to the fact that my mind has been so concentrated on projects. It can be a disease, and I've certainly fell ill quite a bit. You know when a network fails to read all of the packets(or in this case, tons of assignments) sent by different sources, there's a high risk of getting a collision of packets. And they called it a collision domain course, or whatever it is. That was how terrible the brain had to endure, and it fucking made my day(which is thankfully just one fucking day and I won't tell you when it happened) so fucking tense.
But, I've always make it a habit to stop. Or lets just name it, HALT for that matter. Focus on my health(or hunger), my anger, my loneliness and also my time I've spent with these crap. This were the four things that I've always implement whenever shit arises. When I'm hungry, I get myself a food so that I'll languish this fucking hunger of mine. Hunger can sometimes affect mood, and you'll go animalistic when you're down with it. And of course, anger is always the main thing you SHOULD not establish. If ever there is something or someone who has made you so fucking pissed off, make an effort to find some space for you to breathe. Don't ask me how the fuck you'll find that space, just spare a thought to "imagine" a living space if it helps you. Loneliness definitely comes when one finds themselves too reliant on the people who revolves around them(good friends for that matter) and give room for yourself to invoke social living once in a while. Sit down, chat(or crap if the situation arises) and I can honestly tell you that you'll never find yourself being so utterly claustrophobic, social life widens that very space of yours (if you know what I mean). Last but not least, take time off. It is a definite must. And I daresay, the only thing that I feel so much appreciative(and thankful) all these while are not only my family, friends, or whoever, but my very own electric guitar. Its a thing that's been my drug to de-stressed me every single fucking day. Like what cigrattes and alcohol can make you go high, my baby(electric guitar) makes my mood go from a low down to a fucking high note each time I'd take a break doing guitars every few hours of project assignments. So baby, credits to you. Love you alot(laughs)!
On the contrary, I'm going through a phase of transition. Like being a super retarded geek-wannabe for the past few weeks to fit into the mood of "happy project day". It'll end soon I can promise you that and once its officially over, the jobs not over yet Singapore has to fucking win Thailand tomorrow at the Kallang Stadium(laughs)!
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Tuesday, January 30, 2007 and they said..
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Sunday, January 21, 2007
LETS PAINT THE TOWN RED TODAY PEOPLE!
Hear the Lions Roar!!!
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Saturday, January 27, 2007 and they said..
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Tickets to the first leg at Shah Alam Stadium will be on sale at the Football Association of Singapore office at Jalan Besar Stadium on Sunday 21 January and Monday 22 January from 9am to 5pm. Tickets are priced at S$5. Only cash payment will be accepted.
Btw huh, its the first leg, FIRST LEG which is at Malaysia, Shah Alam Stadium is basically at KL, Malaysia. BUT if you are interested and dying to support our fellow Lions play against Malaysia, please GO GET YOUR FUCKING TICKET NOW!!!
The second one's probably next week. Damnit, Maryse you got me all worked up for nothing lah ahaha.
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Sunday, January 21, 2007 and they said..
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Wednesday, January 17, 2007
So here's your hey hey hey! Here's you ho ho ho!
Last night was definitely kick-ass! Not only was it Rachel's Fasten your seatbelts! gig, but it was also the night where Liverpool kick some Chelsea's arse 2-0. Its freaking awesome lah, and I have to admit it has to be one of those wonderful Anfield moments, even though Chelsea were siding an already weakened and lacklustre team performance. So lucky for Liverpool, not so lucky for Chelsea yeah.
So Darren we made a deal yeah, if Liverpool wins that means Man U will also win tonight's match. Don't worry I'll be rooting for the Devils for sure, mutual respect my friend! Glory glory Man United!!!
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Sunday, January 21, 2007 and they said..
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Monday, January 15, 2007
LUIE I KNOW YOU MISS ME RIGHT?!
Ahaha, expected lah. The moment I shed an eyelash a couple of days ago, the first person I thought of is you lah sister. There's a saying that when one sheds an eyelash(without force required, basically it just slips off), that means someone close to you misses you. So is it true my dear sister?
Don't worry, take care of yourself ok. Your brother here misses you too, I'll get you a cough syrup to sooth that throat of yours. If it still doesn't work, just remember the three things I keep reminding you. Rest well, drink lotsa water and think of me when you're not feeling so good. Why? Coz researchers claim that when one starts feeling groggy or in any case sick, start thinking of someone close to your heart and you'll feel so much better. Like some boost of motivation and morale.
And after you got your pay right, I'm gonna do something real good for you. Not only am I NOT buying a bass guitar for you, but better than that, I'm gonna accompany you get one. See! Very sweet right your brother? After which I'm gonna come over to your house and clean up that store room of yours and refurbish an entire new room which is gonna be turn into a jamming studio so that we can start practising our guitars. Oh oh and did I mention I'm gonna help you with your marshall amp? Yes, and don't worry I'll let you use my Peavey amp instead, so that you can still jam with me while I'll be using your Marshall amp for sure. Goodness, I feel like I'm doing something good for you. You better appreciate me one day ok, I'll sacrifice my time and effort for your sake alright, so yeah you can thank me one day.
So once again, get well soon and be a good girl ok? OKAY!!! =D
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Wednesday, January 17, 2007 and they said..
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Wednesday, January 10, 2007
So I'm having an early dose of constant studying to prepare myself for the coming exams. Its almost the end of the semester and I daresay that exams are a worrying lot when you have plenty of doubts and the questions certainly overweights the answers. Include project assignments and datelines to submit em' and you got a totally packed schedule this weekdays.
So last week I've been feeling rather sickly, having caught a cold but I'm rather happy that I'm regaining my health now. Though, I had to go through a tough spell of emotional and physical pain but all is right now and all I can do currently is to just pray and keep my work schedules tight, rest well and just keep on working. For my studies that is. I've to thank my module coordinators for their concern and patience, and whatever you guys have done, from giving me all those personal talks and showing plenty of concern towards my assignments, I certainly appreciate it alright. And that includes my personal mentor Bob Hum, ahaha.
Anyway, last Saturday spent some quality time with my cousin and grandma at Kallang Bahru. Miss em' a whole lot and I look forward to seeing them hopefully this weekend. The following day, off to JP's with Luie and Alex. Played around with Whisky and that dalmatian bitch Lucky. And of course not to mention the effects pedal me and Luie brought along. I've to say chorus pedal's effects are freaking sweet and I'm getting one of those for myself too pretty soon. Yeah.
For your info, Singapore just fucking thrashed Laos 11-0. Awesome.
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Monday, January 15, 2007 and they said..
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Tuesday, January 09, 2007
Happy Birthday to my dear beloved little sister Nur Fatin!
You're eleven now and you've grown so much. Always remember that your brother loves you alot and that you're every reason why I've lived my life to the fullest.
Lotsa of hugs and kisses,
from your dear brother. =D
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Wednesday, January 10, 2007 and they said..
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Thursday, January 04, 2007
So its been a week since I've my blog entry updated but I guess school's been ever so tiring day in day out and how I'm starting to miss the holidays pretty badly. But the weekends are great though caught a gig at Art's House with Rachel and Ghost of Firebrands(Gah) and Sunday was total madness distributing flyers around City hall area with a very good company by the name of Candice.
So that sums up the whole of last week and need I say more? OK, there's a gig on the next following Saturday people at DXO so if I was the one who approach you and gave you a flyer with a very huge font(in bold) called "Fasten Your Seatbelts!" in it you better fucking buy the ticket and support this live gig or if not I'm gonna find you and I'm gonna rip you to shreds and hopefully you'll regret not getting it and probably get the next coming one(if there's a chance, God willing).
I'm gonna stop saying Wassallam from here on not becoz I've no respect for it whatsoever, it use to mean something to me during the past and now I'm totally gonna remove it coz people might misjudge it as something of a racist statement(or whatever that means). So goodbye my dear Wassallam and you will always be in my heart for the rest of my life. The End.
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Tuesday, January 09, 2007 and they said..
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Tuesday, January 02, 2007
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Thursday, January 04, 2007 and they said..
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Cowboys From Hell
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