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Friday, April 28, 2006

Fate

Man, its my fault for not updating. Its not that i dun want to, but I'm kinda busy. But busy isn't the correct word to use, tired to be precise. So most of the time, I'm freaking tired that I'll be dozing off right after I took a shower. Watever it is, I'll try to update my blog due to the fact that my friends would like to noe wat the hell I am doing nowadays. Duty calls. And also, it'll be a waste not to use a blog that has such nice blogskin specially made from a friend of mine. So, better make full use of it...

Anyway, I had a pretty decent chat with my first love recently. As usual, things always does'nt go what she always intended to. So ya, her life is like a rollercoaster, full of ups and downs. But this was'nt our usual convo...

I was flattered when she suddenly felt appreciative of me being by her side when she needed me the most. I noe it sounds wrong but I felt rejoiced. She told me that I was always there when she's always in trouble, that I'm the only person who's willing to help her when she's in need. And what makes me more happier when she told me she did'nt quit school coz I made her strong. That I was the strength in her. I'm not making this up, and neither am I'm lying. Its almost as if I'm in a dream too. But its real, and it came from someone who rejected me before. You heard that, REJECTED. Its cruel, but I guess I have to lay that as fate...

Sometimes, I'm too kind. But my kindness is something which also gives me a very potential weakness, fear. Fear of losing. Fear of losing a friend. I use to think that, being kind means to have more friends. But I was wrong. Now, I change that concept. I'm no longer the guy who gives anyone a soft spot. Nor am I being TOO kind. Yes, I was kind to my first love. But it was becoz I'm not holding back my words. I made a promise to her. And I had kept it with all my heart ever since I got to noe her. I told her I'm willing to give my all if she is in need. And yes, I still does that. But maybe God was being fair to me. He was trying to test me with all this to prove that I kept my words, and let fate decide. And I did it with all my heart. I was'nt helping her becoz I loved her or love her, but she was still a friend to me. I would do anything for a friend. That's me, FYI.

I'm missing my friends nowadays. My frinky friends. My E6 mates. My brothers. Everyone. Even my ex. I'm like spending more time in school rather than my social life. I failed in time management. But one thing for sure, even if I don't spend time with em. They're still in my heart no matter what. And thats a promise that'll stay in me for the rest of my life.

I'm starting to live life like I've done it the first time. Haha, crap...

Wassallam.

*Alucard*
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Friday, April 14, 2006

B2B

Back to blogging. Ya I noe it sounds retarded but its been a long time ever since my school's freshmen orientation ended that I've been blogging. Was busy like hell, schedule was damn hectic. So I really could'nt find any time to blog. But now, I'm free for the time being...

So wat did I do for the past two weeks? Was in SIT's freshmen orientation, then there was OGL bbq and SEG freshmen orientation. It was kinda fun larh, I think I'm enjoying myself as an OGL. But now, its the beginning of our planning stage. I'm currently the committee for the upcoming event, Xtreme Venture 2. XV2. Watever they call it. Haha. And I'm the assistant game master. So apparently, my job is to come out games and run them during the event. And it was so freaking stressful. Coz we had to come out 30 games! Like WTF?! Anyway, our job is almost done. Only the findings though, now its left with the description of the games, plus location etc. Everything has to be done precisely, and safety is the upmost consideration. So ya, alot of our games have to rejected. By our seniors. Urgh. Freaking pissed. Purposely tekan us, but its part of the process I think. So we had to be strong larh, though we had to bargain the seniors to give us more time to think of the games...

But we game masters are thankful that everyone else in our committee helped out in giving us alot more games. Coz they dun have anything to do mah, so they helped come out new games that we think is best for the XV2. Hopefully things will run perfectly. Submissions on Monday 12pm! OMG!

One more thing, I got my new timetable! WTF?! I have'nt plan it but it was done last friday morning! Woohoo, so now I got a class. I think should be the same as Saiful's. And ya, plus my owed maths. And I passed my Data comm supp paper too! Alhamdullilah...

Wassallam.

*Alucard*
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Friday, April 07, 2006

How I feel sia

Man, sorry for my absence this past few days. I'm really busy with the school's Freshmen orientation day. And ya, two words I can describe about my state rite now. Exhausted and sleepy. I'm freaking tired and at the same time not having plenty of sleep the way I use to. Sheesh.

So ya, will be blogging something if I've the time. I love being an OGL, although its a very tiring thing for me but you gotta have fun not only with your fellow OGL mates, but also your freshies.

Wassallam.

PS...Tired larh, how I feel sia...heh

*Alucard*
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Monday, April 03, 2006

Yassin

Man, Sunday was my arwah's bacaan yassin. But the thing is, it started abit too early. So I was kinda groggy but I still made it. I think it started at 10 am in the morning. In case you're wondering, its more like sending your prayers to the dead. Erm, I dunnoe how to describe it but thats the idea larh. Like chinese burning their paper moneys, something liddat. Ok, as usual I ended up not with my family(my bro and dad went MIA out of a sudden) and I was left with my cousin Faris. Sheesh.

So doa-doa yassin was recited. Me and my uncle shared one yassin book, or watever it's called. Haha. But I can honestly tell you my arab reading is getting a bit rusty, though i can still read but it takes time for me to catch it. When I finally got the hang of it, me and my uncle kept on missing pronounciations. Like suddenly the lines change, or when the line were suppose to be there but we did'nt noe it was the next page or two.Hah. And we were both laughing out loud coz we thought the book had it all wrong. Mind you I thought I was the one who had it wrong. But guess my uncle too had problems catching up with the ladies reciting. And I could see my nenek watching our antics, though she was puzzled why we were smiling throughout the prayers. Ya, dats how my Sunday went...I need to start mengaji soon, or maybe start reading my Quran again. Coz its a long time since I've ever done one. Sheesh

So now I'm blogging at 5 coz I could'nt sleep. I had been sleeping from 7pm till 3 am. And later I've OGL briefing at 9 am. Haiz. I'll better go this time, it'll be my third time not attending. Surely I'll be kick in the arse by them for skipping. Haha. Whatever yat, or pat...heh

Wassallam.

*Alucard*
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