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Friday, October 27, 2006

I look forward to buying the daily New Paper nowadays till I've all parts of my "love letter" from a very inspiring young lady by the name of Natasha Latiff. She's an admirable person and I must say I've fallen in love with her, maybe becoz she's pretty but yeah I'm touched by her determination to change the world, by seeing reality in her own two eyes and not get carried away by talks and news about a particular thing which you assume is harmful. She ignores all danger that she's facing and the only thing in mind she has is to well, change the world.

Young but charismatic, how I wish I could get to know her and yeah, if God's willing I'll be glad to have her as my future wife too. I wanna be inspiring one day, but maybe in a way where my passion gives. That's when music comes in, and yeah like her, I wanna change the world through my music and not in a way where my interest comes which is metal. I love all sorts of genres of music and if God's willing, I'll spread the word of love through the songs and lyrics that I'll produce someday. Insyallah.

Anyway, selamat hari raya people, I know its kinda late but yeah, mohon maaf zahir dan batin. =D

Wassallam.

*Alucard*
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Sunday, October 22, 2006

So its kick off for the Devils vs the Scousers. I'm definitely rooting for the Scousers even if they're on enemy ground. Go Liverpool!

After which, Real vs Barca. Tonight's a day for big matches and I doubt I'll be able to wake up early for tomorrow's lesson tomorrow at 10 am. Wargh, I still can't believe I've to attend night classes for the eve of Hari Raya.

Wassallam.

*Alucard*
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Friday, October 20, 2006

My bro's taking the O level's this year and my God is he not anxious or worried at all. Damn, and I myself can't remember how I managed to go through the exams in one piece, ok lah if we were to think about it now it wasn't that bad actually. Anyway, I'm wishing him the very best for his papers coz God knows how much pressure my bro is taking in right now. He might not show any signs of anxiety, but step in his shoes and I'll get to picture every little stress he's going through like I did when I was on the same road as him now.

But anyway, I've not been blogging for the past few days coz school's making me all jaded. Those far end trips are totally killing me. Patiently waiting, I hardly make to class early. I don't wanna repeat of last semester and I've promise not to even flunk a single module for this one. I've learn my mistake and I'm not gonna repeat anymore of em ever again. But rides are enjoyable this time round to and from school coz I've been making a habit of borrowing books in the library and at the same time reading plenty of good novels ever since I've started a habit of reading during the holidays. I've just finish a book called Veronika decides to die by Paul Coelho and I'm starting to gain on a few pages of good "fat" reading from a book call Wuthering Heights by Emily Bronte.

Nothing much happen apparently, just school, school and more schooling. I can't wait for Ramadhan to end and hello Hari Raya Aidilfitri! =D

Wassallam.

*Alucard*
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Wednesday, October 18, 2006

So I've been preparing a lot for this coming Hari Raya. My mum prepared famos amos cookies and yeah lucky people you guys will definitely enjoy em! Other than that, school was kinda cool and I can't wait to visit my cousin at Kallang tmr. I totally miss him to bits! =D

Damn, how come Monday's a night class that means we(which includes those who have night classes on that very day) can't celebrate malam raya like all muslims do. This is so fucking unfair. =(

Wassallam.

*Alucard*
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Sunday, October 15, 2006

I've a very good question I would like to ask every one of you. It might sound random, but yeah different people have their own reasons and points of view in justifying their answers. Its a matter of how they clarify their statements, and approach it in a way where everyone understands what he or she has given to state his or her point of view. =D

So which is a better approach: Asking a good question or giving a good answer?

Wassallam.

*Alucard*
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Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Damn, I dun wanna be skinny. Once fasting month is over, I'll start gyming soon. I promise! =D

Wassallam.

*Alucard*
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Monday, October 09, 2006

Love Vs Obsession

So what's the difference between the both of them? Are they similar in their ways of emotions, or are one of them a substitute of another?

One must tell how obsessive he or she is towards a person he has an affection with. He might assume he's on cloud nine, well to get to know someone they like. To talk to someone they like, or even to go on a date with someone they like. But does it really matter if he starts rambling 24 hours daily about someone they like to the people around him or her? Or keeps every single detail of someone they like, could be photos, could be messages, it could even be keeping a strand of hair of that particular person. Damn, that's obviously pretty nasty but ya this kind of people does exist.

Notice that I keep mentioning "someone they like" becoz obviously, both this two simple yet so meaningful words "love" and "obsession" does affect the person whom they liked but are different in terms of a person's way of doing it. Or loving someone, I must say. Obsession can be harmful yet an adventure to a person. He might not realised of his obsession, becoz he thinks its really ok as long as the person whom he likes doesn't know. But what he doesn't know that someday, it'll come where he'll face a consequence so drastic that he has to admit lost and choose to repent to his own sinful extreme doings, or carry on to another person. Sounds familiar? Then better be warn man, obsessive people won't last long. As in, maybe in terms of relationships and I'm not talking about death, mind you. You think too much seriously...

So ya, obsession is not something to be taken lightly, ok maybe if you do keep a photo or two of the person so dear to you or maybe your close friend, then its ok. Just don't get addicted. But whatever it is, tell him or her that you wanna share the moment by keeping a small piece of memory printed or shot from a kodak camera moment. That way, your friends will appreciate you more than ever, without getting all awkward and all that. =S

Ok, I know this is one of a few random post-entries moment, but hey once in a while you don't get to discuss on such matters. Me and Luie were definitely feeling all cheesy today so we had a very cheesy discussion about it. =D

Wassallam.

*Alucard*
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Sunday, October 08, 2006

I woke up in the morning, look out from my bedroom window, and noticed a slight mist around my neighbourhood. Ah, fresh moist air. The environment was amazing, absolutely pure. Its as though it rained for centuries last night. And it was a pretty decent sight to behold. Never really enjoyed cool fresh air for months, sorry, years I suppose. All those late nights and afternoon wake-ups are seriously affecting my sleep mode. The visibility was barely reaching 80%, its almost as if I could see floating silhouettes and sketches of unfamiliar figures you normally see in a pastel painting protrait. And it feels so life-like, or watever that means.

So I took a long deep breath like inhaling huge puffs of thick juicy air of orange. Ok, it was just a random thought, but orange is a nice flavour to blend with the current atmosphere.It feels so fucking great, I almost felt as if I was smoking weed, orange weed i suppose, and I was certain I could suddenly grow wings behind my back. That sense of self-pleasure, just by barely breathing in such soothing cool air, almost relaxing to both mind and body. Such a beautiful weather. Its gonna be a waste not to be out jogging, since I'm already out of bed so early and I longed for a nice, long jog at my neighbourhood fitness park. Where I could hear the morning birds chirp in a surprisingly melancholic harmony, the aunties and ah mas chit chatting by the park bench, having their usual up-to-date gossips and news and maybe some hot babe who apparently might whizz past me while I'm at it. There's plenty of hot girls at my neighbourhood, trust me. I do supposedly jog with them, but I never really had the intention to chase after them. For God's sake, I'm jogging, not running after girls. Ok crap, maybe my sub-concious was feeling all high. I daresay I could even strum an alternate guitar picking just for that very morning.

The serenity and calmness just astounds me. I was hoping today was gonna be a very good day. I felt so alive, so high-and-mighty, even though its just another day where I unexpectedly woke up so early and yet surprisingly doesn't have that stony feeling every now and then. It was that kind of feeling where I look forward to today, even if I'm going out or just staying at home doing my own stuff, whilst fasting like all Muslims do for this Ramadhan. Doesn't matter if it tires me after a jog, its a pretty good weather and I've stick to that mindset of "don't waste this opportunity! Grab it damnit!!!"

Nevermind that, so I went on to check my cell phone, which I usually does most of the time in case someone had an urgent news to tell me(surprising, my friend Rachel does. She sometimes scare the shit out of me for no apparent reasons. Sheesh.) But anyway, I just couldn't believe my eyes what I was seeing. For crying out loud, I was cheated. The weather was definitely guilty, it got me there whole. I fell for such silly "mist" outfit. Whatever the weather had done to actually cheat me, it had done well. I hold back the swearing that came into mind like "fuck thats no mist, thats a fucking haze" or "stupid yat, you fell for such an eyesore." That feeling of "urgh...", "urgh..." and clearly more "urgh...". It's already 11.50, almost 12 pm noon. Now that enthusiasm that was curbing deep inside me all along had been drained out like a flush. One shot and all of those manures and waste matters gone. Its the opposite mind you, but I could think of it everything as a negativity.

I was going, "fuck this haze, fuck this morning, fuck this wake-up and fuck this day!" But no, obviously I was thinking of it at that point of time, amazingly, in a positive way. Could be the fact that I was just awake, or maybe I was on a fast, so it really didn't actually slip in my mind to think of it on such an extreme. Being patient was my forte, being a loser was never my weakness.And I lost to a tricky, stinky old haze. If you have a name I'd rather call u hazel. or HazeL as in L for loser. Ok, definitely not in a mood to be so crappy now, which basically turn out to be a bitch fest. But it was obvious that I'm feeling all shitty right now. I've been looking forward to something that wasn't something to look forward to. It sounds awkward but it has a nice ring to it. Bleah. And then I realised, damn Singapore's on a hazy crisis. How shitty can that be, huh?

The mist was clearly a joke, The haze has been concealing an identity as a part-time "mist" investigation. It could be a spy from Indonesia. A huge one with relatively a big nuisance to begin with.Why can't the authority or the democratic government deal with such sinful criminal act? Isn't it ironic that Singapore is such a high-security country? They clearly failed to authoritize one thing which is the haze. This thing's so evil it could make your nose go "ITCH" and your eyes go "SWELL". That's equivalent to murder and rape.

So I had my resolution done in almost in an instant and what did I do? I went back to bed. That idea of going jogging and having a beautiful morning jog totally disappeared. It just dissipitate like thin air. Maybe it was contaminated by those haze-iness that's been bugging me right now. Clearly I was devastated, not only becoz of the whole haze saga, but also becoz of my stupidity. Damn, told ya being a loser was my weakness. I choked fake coughs to add to the sarcasm. Hopefully it might cheer me up just a lil. Like how I'll go "Lalala..." when I'm not in the mood to argue. Or maybe just skip it and pretend I wasn't even talking. I hope the haze gets it though, it'll just worsen my throat bad. Imagine me having a normal conversation whilst sounding like I'm on screamo one day. Wicked. That'll be the cause of YOU, Mr HazeL.

So the story went on until I keep telling myself "no, its not a mist. Its definitely a haze. I'm never gonna fall on that kind of trick ever again." Next thing I knew, I was sound asleep. Zzz...

PS: Obviously I'm just making out a talking cock story becoz I felt the need to put my good narrating to a very good use. Ok lah, maybe just for the haze. Or maybe when I feel so fucking free then I'll make more random novel-like entries like this for reading pleasure. None of this is real mind you, ok lah maybe some of the parts. But the whole incident, never really happen. Its just fiction, all of em. Whatever that means. Heh.

Wassallam.

*Alucard*
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Friday, October 06, 2006

There are times when you feel the need to block all contacts with certain people due to unconditional reason. It could be your enemy, could be your friends and it could even be your own good friends. But whatever it is you have with this particular person, do not assume that he's avoiding you. The fact that he just needs his own time to do some soul-searching or just to have his own time alone. It doesn't have to be personal issues, it could just happen out of the blue.

But its not about being selfish or just being too self-closure, but its all about getting your right frame of mind and mood to stabilize and stop worrying so much of others and their personal matters. You need to assure yourself that you too, have matters of your own. That you need to start thinking of your own needs, and not others. Whatever it is, with good time management and self-judgement, plus a whole lot of discipline, I guess it won't really affect you that much. You might be missing the people around you, but on the other hand you gotta realize you don't worry so much becoz you only worry about your own, but not the people around you. Or watever it is, becoz basically thats the whole point. But you do get what I mean right? Taking a break from the outside world and all...

Ok lah, not all the people around you but only certain people.If that happens you're definitely a loner man. By the way, I'm not getting all cheesy and all that but just to clarify to those whom I've not been talking to for the whole month of my holidays and hopefully it won't affect you people that much. The reason why I've been so quiet and inactive. I still love you guys and miss you every single day, but I just feel the need to have my own time and space. Thank Heaven's, I've learn so much just by having so much time of my own, like playing the guitars and all that. So ya, taking a break once in a while is definitely good. Just manage your time well and everyday is a perfect day. =D

Wassallam.

*Alucard*
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Tuesday, October 03, 2006

Trivium's new album is releasing on the 10th of October! =D

Wassallam.

*Alucard*
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Monday, October 02, 2006

Man, I love watching "Whose Line is it anyway?"!

Wayne Brady's a joy to watch, plus the combination of Colin Mochrie and Ryan Stiles makes the show a hilarious one. Damn, I love these guys to bits, they tickled my funny bone every second. I wanna watch season 7 on channel 5 but its not aired yet. =(

Thank heavens, there's youtube to at least savor the laughter even if the episodes are cut into 2-3 mins of entertainment.

Wassallam.

*Alucard*
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