Ascendancy

Friday, October 28, 2005

What will Aidilfitri be like without happiness...?

Man, I'm so sick right now. As in physically sick lah. Could'nt go to friday prayers and also to bazaar coz I've been bedridden the whole day today. Maybe its becoz of the cold weather, or maybe becoz I've been thinking quite a lot of things...lately...

And ya, only two days of leave and many have been asking about my absence. From a customer to our neighbouring stallholders, it is so touching that they missed my presence at bazaar. Hahakz, and my uncle gave lame excuses like I kena retrenched lah, I went to london lah, macam-macam karena lagilah. Sheesh, maybe what my mak said tak sia-sia lah. That when you gave a good impression on the customers, that they would feel a great satisfaction buying food from our stalls, and maybe they will come back for more. And one such example is this regular customer who did ask for my absence yesterday. Touching indeed. Thank you mak for your help, I deeply appreciate it...you know I will always love you...

I would also like to thank Zainal and Syamilah for coming down to bazaar yesterday. Walaupun datang dari sekolah, namun korang tetap hadir juga. Terima kasih lah banyak-banyak, I'm so terharu. But it would have been better if my frinky friends were there...sheesh...I really miss their company...

Hari Raya kan menjelma and I've been having this...mixed feelings?! That I'm happy, but in the same time I'm having this worries. So many things I've been thinking about. Some of you may not even realized it. THEY could have been thinking that Hidayat has been having a great day almost everyday. That Hidayat does'nt have any doubts what so ever. BUT WHAT THEY did'nt know, yat do had his DAYS. BUT only he does'nt show it becoz he had had enough of telling people all this negativity...

What will Aidilfitri be like without happiness?!

That he misses his nenek so much even though she's been sitting at home alone without anyone's company biler mase berbuke. Arwah datuk sudah tiada lagi, and she's my mak's aunt. Her children could'nt even bother about her condition. I just wish I could just visit her...That his parents had been fighting among each other just becoz my ayah belum bayar duit fitrah, and I've been the middle man trying to cool things down at home. That people does'nt know that his sister is also sickly at home and needs more attention lately. That is also one of the catalyst why my parents haven been arguing on petty things like this.And I myself can't take it anymore Haiz, I dunnoe lah. Maybe personal matters like this, I prefer to disclose it instead. Everyone has their own story to tell, and this is one of mine. I just hope my bro, Zul and my frinky friend, Mirah will realized bout this. Forget about those doubts and worries and having bad days all that. Aidilfitri kan menjelma, sebaiknya kita harus bersyukur berpuasa sebulan and look forward tuk meraihkan Hari Raya. I'm really sorry if I've to mention the both of you, but I can bear to see you guys feeling this way when Hari Raya is just around the corner...

Malam Ramadhan adalah malam yang paling suci sekali. Banyakkan lah solat terawih dan bacaan Al-Quran. Sesungguh nya, malam Ramadhan juga adalah malam di mana semua malaikat turun ke bumi tuk manaburi lebih banyak pahala. Oklah, that was one of those few things I picked out during last nights syarahan. Hehez, so smell ya guys later, Selamat berpuase and May God Bless all of you, Wassallam.

*Alucard*
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Thursday, October 27, 2005

Hari raya kan menjelang, woohoo..

Oh man, went to Johore on Wednesday with my parents. It was so fun! The shopping and the place and everything about Malaysia, it really is a wonderful place. So me, my bro and both my parents went to Angsana, Komtar and City Square to shop. And a Pak Wancha( Transporter) escort us from the checkpoint to Angsana first, and back again to Singapore. At Angsana, we saw Dina there( M'sian Idol first season runner-up...) She salam my mak somemore! Die cium tangan mak saya! Argh!! My mother tegur her lah" Assalamualaikum Dina..." And then she replied and kissed her hands. Wah, I never imagine an artist would be this humble. And I admire this kind of artist you noe. Wah dah mcm menantu mak ah..ehem, I think I'm going overboard da..

So, at Angsana I bought two jeans from a levis shop. And the shop assistant was so damn cute! She kept asking me which size I want for my jeans, but I could'nt speak a word. Wargh! Wat a day. Spent on t-shirts for school's nxt semester too. Man, and the girls in both Angsana and City Square are so...nice. Cannot lah, bulan puase kan. Hehez...

Budden, after that at Komtar and City Square was kinda tired lah. Maybe becoz I slept pretty late the other night. Buke at Sedap corner, and the western food is so nice. Den ate desert at Coffee Bean. Bought my favourite Choc fudge cake there. Wah, kenyang giler nye. Den bought kuih raye. This year, not so much kuih raye lah, coz can make our own mah...hehez...

And ya, I would like to thank my friends( Tze Wei, Peter, Vanessa and Fu Yi) for making my day last Monday. Went to bugis to shop. Even though in the end only Vanessa bought this cute dog-shaped beg which cost 15.90. And I paid the whole sum for her. Dunnoe lah, maybe I was in a blanja mood. And also becoz I've no idea wat to do with my money. Budden, it was meant for her b'dae in advance, this coming December. And yeah, speaking of presents, I promise my frinky frenz presents! Alamak!! Oklah, I will try to get it ASAP...

After which we "break" fast together at burger king. It was the first time seh I break and ate together with people of a different race. And ya, I was so touched by their perseverance and understanding.One thing! Don't buy burger king's cheese sticks! Its so damn small! And 1 dollar for five, thought its worth it lorh... And ya, also saw fauzie laili with his girlfriend at bugis too. And they looked cute as a couple. One tall, one short. She's a minah tudung somemore, fair skin. He's a lucky guy lah. Best of luck for their relationships lah. Coz thats and ideal couple...

Ok, tomorrow I'm gonna start working. Work work work. I can't wait! NOT becoz of Roti kirai. NOT becoz of ondeh-ondeh. AND NOT becoz of nagasari or kuih lopez ok Saiful. No ah. I got no time ok, hehez...I just love working a bazaar lah, coz thats the only time u can make lotsa of noise! Hahakz, watever...

Hari Raya kan menjelang! I can't wait! Meet my cousins and relatives, I miss each and every one of them so much! Budden have'nt bought baju raye! Wargh, nampaknye last year nye baju raye lah kene pakai nie. Unless someone out there care to accompany to shop for baju raye with me for a day? This is your chance, spend a day with Hidayat! Hurry while stocks last!!! Hahakz...

Ok ok, I think I talked crap too much already. Sampai berbuih-buih mulut. Dunnoe lah, I think I'm so bersungguh-sungguh rite now. Kalau dah sungguh-sungguh gini baek pi sungguh.com lah! Horh, lain channel da. Smell ya guys later, Selamat berpuasa and May God bless all of you, Wassallam....SELAMAT ARIE RAYE!! ARGH!!!

*Alucard*
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Friday, October 21, 2005

I miss...

Hmm, I've long been so away from updating my blog and I've got plenty to say. BUT, I think I just shorten things up...

Ok, bazaar has been so much fun now. Coz, we've been getting along well with our neighbouring stallholders and they're so so friendly. And yes, when its time for business, we go all out. Just like friends turn to rival. Hahakz, but each day its been laughter laughter and more laughter for me and Saiful. We could'nt stop laughing, becoz my uncle has shown his true colour. By being such a joker when we're working." Ayam percik...banyak sedap...banyak panas..."

And yes, in the same time I miss all my friends...

I miss my NYP peeps...

I miss Charles for being such a joker back in school...

I miss Alex for always being such a jerk, literally...

I miss Tze Wei for his love for The Used and being and Arsenal fanatic...

I miss JP for his love for music and programming...

I miss Fu Yi for being such a hardworking friend and his java-natics...

I miss Vanessa for being such a great Maths partner...

I miss my class in short ok...

I miss kamal and his gang for their NYP spirit...

So does Saiful's and his gang too...

I miss my frinky friends for their mangkuk-ness and lemau-ness and wheelchair-ness...

I miss my brothers( melvin, Guo Jun, Edmond, Ah Yong, Yen Tsi, Ah Xin and Alvin...) for being such great friends...

I miss my ex...I dunnoe why, I just miss her...I'm just being true to my feelings...thats all...

AND I miss mygrandparents for always being great grandparents( like duh)...

One thing, I just hope Suria will one day televise Quran recitals like what M'sia is doing. Only for the month of Ramadhan. Becoz, Bulan Ramadhan adalah bulan Al-Quran. It is where umat Islam lebih banyak membaca Al-Quran dan juga menunaikan solat Tarawih. Coz, I've been following through all of the recitals in either TV3, NTV7 or 8TV. And ya, learnt the meaning behind each juz. I wanna learn the lessons and wahyu-wahyu yang tertulis di Al-Quran. There's no point katam if I don't understand the real meaning of Al-Quran rite...

So smell ya later guys, Selamat berpuasa and May God Bless you, Wassallam.

*Alucard*
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Sunday, October 09, 2005

Syukur Alhamdullilah...

Man, bazaar had been a busy thing for me and Saiful. Only five days and I'm dead tired. Well, at least to say that all those hard work paid off lah. I got to rest tomorrow. And got some money I could spent on my wishlist and promises...

I've noticed quite a lot of things lately...

That the spirit of Ramadhan never fades even though I've been working at Jurong West bazaar. The makcik at a nearby stall kept giving kuih-muih and nasi lemak to me. Man, I feel so touched each time she does that. Even though I'm kinda unwilling to accept her gifts, her sincerity is hard to forget. And yeah, the only way I could thank her is to just smiled at her. And said...thank you...

I've been knowing quite a few stall holders there. Some from my first day there till now. And now I'm starting to be part of the family. Each time I walked around finding some food before break fast, some will tegur me and have a chat. Its really nice, to get to know other people more. But too bad can't get to know roti kirai yet...hehez...

Business for both Saturday and Sunday have been pretty good. Syukur Alhamdullilah, I think it is'nt that bad after all...maybe it does take time...or maybe weekends tend to have more customers...I guess...

That some people gets nervous when they wanna ask whether there's a particular food left. They'll be hiding one corner, where their friend will be like persuading her whether she really wants to ask about it or not. And ya, sometimes I would pretend that I was'nt hearing their commotion and only did ask them if her friend finally appeared and decided to ask about it. Hahakz, don't worry. I don't bite ok. And then when she finally appeared behind that pillar, she'll look at me and suddenly blushed..hehez...weird...

That the world is getting disastrous day by day. We don't know for sure, science may tell us that the earth is going through a stage of "evolution". But to us Muslim, it is just another sign. I don't wanna say it, but I guess we pretty much know...

Inilah tanda-tanda nya. Sebelum ia berlaku, jangan lah kita lalai dalam arus keduniaan dan maksiat...

Finally, break for me at last and I'm looking forward to going out with my classmates. Not all, only Tze Wei, Peter and Fu Yi. We're playing dotA tomorrow! Hahakz, I can't wait! I miss playing LAN with them. And yeah, results is tomorrow. Wish you guys who's taking Multimedia infocomm or anyone from NYP who's getting their results tomorrow, a very good luck! So smell you guys later, selamat berpuase and May God bless all of you, Wassallam.

*Alucard*
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Friday, October 07, 2005

Wooo...

I got my pay, like finally. And I'm feeling so tired and jaded right now. But someone kept me going on for bazaar...

Roti Kirai...

Hahakz, she's one sweet girl sak. Me and Saiful saw her. Uhuh. Anggun skali. Sold roti kirai at a nearby stall. And she looks kinda like Wardinah, that M'sian artist lah. Minah tudung somemore! But like what Saiful said"... Yat, bulan puase bulan tuk beribadah, bukan bulan tuk tackle pompuan." Hahakz, lantak ah...

Anyway, business today is getting far more worst. But its ok, thats the life of a shopkeeper. There's always a possibility of ups and downs. Whereas ours is more like a low-down. Maybe its becoz we're first timers there, so people are not used to buying things from us. Coz we're new, and people may feel uneasy buying food from us...

Its ok, time will tell. Urgh, and tomorrow Saiful can't make it for the whole day. Who noes it maybe packed tomorrow. See how it goes lah, like I said remember her...

Roti kirai...

And everything will be A-OK! Hahakz, whatever lah. Smell ya guys later, selamat berpuasa and May God bless all of you, Wassallam.

*Alucard*
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Wednesday, October 05, 2005

Smile like you mean it...

Anyway, today was the first day for Bazaar Jurong West. And yeah, we got lotsa of people there. Either buying food or just looking around. Business was pretty much ok. Me and Saiful sold out burgers and egg tarts. Got a few money, although we only got our pay on weekends. It was fun in the same time, got to see familiar faces. People from our ex-secondary school, my soccer senior from Jurong West FC and also me and Saiful's banquet colleague. Hahakz, it was fun but tiring...

And ya, a few traits I've learnt throughout this whole experience today. That you smile if you mean it. Sometimes, it does'nt matter whether its the type of person you are serving, but also it shows how ikhlas you are selling your items. Either food or merchandises. The money you earned datang dari hati yang ikhlas. That is, the thing about all peniagas, or entrepeneurs. And I learned it from my own eyes and and experiences. Even if the person you are serving is giving you a major headaches. But thats the challenge most workers have to face. The customer may always be right, but the money they had to spent on your services is the utmost important thing. Forget about complaining on how bad they treated us employees, maybe we should be complaining on how we failed to give a good impression on them instead. I have quite a few satisfied customers today. Some ask for more. But I'm a bit too soft. Maybe its the surrounding noises or I'm just plain soft. Well, I'll do better tomorrow. Insyallah...

I wanna go tarawih again. I went last night. And I felt like going tarawih. I wanna atone to my sins. Guess I pretty much realized how sinful I am. See how it goes. If I have the time, I'll go for tarawih tomorrow. If not, solat di rumah pun jadilah. Maybe ask Saiful to bring extra clothings, baju kurung so that we could go tarawih after work tomorrow...

So smell ya guys later, selamat berpuasa and May God bless all of you, Wassallam.

*Alucard*
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Tuesday, October 04, 2005

Bulan Ramadhan kan menjelang...

Yeah, its the time of the year where all muslims go on a fast for a month, then after that Hari Raya! Yippee. Anyway, bazaar's starting officially on Wednesday 5th October. Me and Saiful will be running stall number 14! So come down if you guys can make it. To all my peeps, whether its the Frinks or my NYP friends, I will really miss hanging out with you guys. Coz I may not be able to make myself free throughout the whole fasting months. I'm really sorry guys...

So today gonna prepare everything in our stall, from wirings to tables and chairs to even...Saiful?! Hehez, he's still new to this bisness lah, must gave him the some rules and regulations kan...

Wish you guys a very good Ramadhan and also for my new stall. Come down if you are free okiez! I'll be really happy to serve you, remember stall number 14 ok. Bazaar Jurong West Blk 440! Hahakz, see I've given you so many details! So come down alright!!

So smell you later and till then, May God Bless all of You, Wassallam.

*Alucard*
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Saturday, October 01, 2005

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is...

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last dance...

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You should'nt ever came around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you did'nt understand
You fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life...

Song by: Papa Roach
Title: Scars

This lyris sure had a thing to do with my life with my first love. Now...I'm happy being alone...

So smell you guys later and May God Bless her and all of you, Wassallam.

*Alucard*
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Sometimes, its better off that way...

Man, I'm gonna start work like next week! Hahakz, Saturday's gonna be the balloting of the bazaar stalls(hiss...). And monday's the try out, where 5th of October is the official oppening! So make sure you come down to my stall ya!!!

I miss working at my uncle's Seafood stall. Seriously. Today went to Haig Road( finally...) to meet my pakcik. And he, as usual will want to find a new staff. And I sometimes I don't like his attitude. Although his my uncle. Sometimes, its better off that way. And ya, I could'nt even see my members. Maybe they're fired or stop working. Haiz. I miss the times during my time working there. Really is a great place. To me, they're more like a mentor. Even though they're considered MATs. But I still loved them. Haiz, where you guys man...

Anyway, today went out with my frinky friends( with the exception of Zul..) to Geylang Serai. I dunnoe, maybe I felt like going there to see the place. Before it gets renovated. And ya, also Izzah. Who's working at Joo Chiat Compleks. And who's EXPECTING us to see her. Which we did. And it took her by surprise. Coz she's working. Like duh. Hehez...

And ya, saw my OGL( Aini...) there too! Hah! Its a small world! Hahakz. Maybe there's something to do with it...hmm....

*Slap*

I'm starting to get addicted to WC3. I don't know why, ever since my friends ask me out for LAN, I've been hooked on it. And Tze Wei and I can't stop playing it every night. Coz, we now got a special crack to play LAN at our own computer. How cool is that?! Talk about our mistakes and all that crap about the computer. I tell you, dun judge a book by its cover. Seriously. We were WALLOPED by and easy computer leh. Look at my easy. Like, totally! Its damn funny lah. Hehez. I wish I could play LAN next week with him. Though I'm gonna start work. Man, hopefully we got to play WC3 tomorrow the whole day! That is so cool...

So smell you guys later and till then, May God bless all of you, Wassallam.

*Alucard*
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