Thursday, May 12, 2005
Why would I bother to be thinking of her now…why would I ever think that I would be forgiven…maybe its because I lied…I lied to a lot of people, my friends…my family…and myself…and I know now that…even as time goes for a standstill…nothing could be change…not a single miracle could even heal a wound so deep inside of me…they left me as though I’ve made a terrible sin…yes I did have made a big one, something that even you find it hard to believe…you wouldn’t understand…how my world revolved…how I feel being so agonized, jaded by these thing called love…a responsibility so heavy for me…to my friends…to my family…and not even a single thing for myself…I don’t even need to be sympathized…just some morale booster from the people around me is all I needed…to carry on living…these world of mine, alone…biarlah ku dihina…dicaci…dipersendakan…atas desakan nafsu…atas kesalahan ku…atas segala perbuatan ku yang dikejikan…ku terimanya dengan sepenuh hati…ku terimanya sebagai balasan daripada Yang Maha Esa…ku redha…ku mengundur diri ku…ku mengalah…I wouldn’t want to tell her…I kept it all to my own…my reasons are never to be spoken of…not even one knew why…but lying to her was what I’ve done…so I did…so hateful she was to me…words do go around…but you forgot my dear…promises don’t …hanya tersirat di dalam hati…hanya bahan umpatan kau terima segalanya…and to think hatiku kan berdamai sekarang…mungkin ku salah…it was just the beginning…of an inevitable relationship…that when totally wrong…because of me…maybe it was too late…maybe its just starting…I can now be a friend…or even your foe…wallahuallam…wassallam…
was rockin' on
Thursday, May 12, 2005 and they said.. 
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