Tuesday, May 03, 2005
Untukmu, keluargaku
"Siapalah ku ini, untuk memintal buihYang memutih, menjadi permaidaniSeperti mana yang tertulis dalam novel cinta...Juga mustahil bagiku, menggapai bintang di langitMenjadikan hantaran, syarat untuk milikimuSemua itu, sungguh aku tak termampu..."That was what I had in mind this past few weeks. So sorry guys I've been on a very long week hiatus, and did'nt even bother to update my blog. But my blog's been goin through a series of misfortunate events too, its been experiencing problems all these while. And I too was'nt left out, but I dared not say it anymore coz its already over...
Anyway, mother's day coming soon, ku sebagai anak yang sayangkan ibunya seperti mana semua anak-anak mereka sayangkan ibunya juga, tidak kesampaian untuk memberinya sebuah buah tangan kepada mak yang tersayang. And i feel so guilty I could'nt give her one, not becoz I dun have any money, but my mom refused to...
"kalau abang sayang kan mak, jagalah adik mu dengan kasih sayang yang sepenuhnya. Itulah hajat mak, tak usah abang belikan apa-apa pada hari ibu. Tunaikanlah janji-janji mu, dan mak akan restui kasih sayang abang ok..."Dan kerna itulah, ku tergamak melepaskan seorang insan yang pernah kasihi. Ku bawa diri kerna tidak kesampaian untuk membelah bagi kasih sayang ku. Maafkan lah diri ku kalau ku telah menyimpan semua ini dan membohongi diri mu. I just want you to forget about me, becoz I noe I'm not the guy that you'll be happy with. Dan skarang, biler ku sedar betapa rindu nya diriku pada nya, ku hanya berdoa semoga diri nya bahagia selalu...
And now, I'm just picking up pieces of me back and try to move on. Although, I being to one who refused her in the first place, find it so hard to forget about her. Anyway, school's gonna start school, and I need to buy my own school apparels. Haiz, I've got the money, but did'nt got the time. So why bother, might as well I keep it and pay it for my sis's school transport instead. Insyallah.
Maybe I'll stop here for now, there's no topic I would like to discuss rite now. I'm not in the mood. Till then, May God bless you, Wassallam.
"Slamat tinggal, kekasih ku..."
*Alucard*
was rockin' on
Tuesday, May 03, 2005 and they said.. 

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