Monday, March 20, 2006
Flu flu go away
Freaking hell, this flu just can't stop bugging me. For the past few days, I can't even sleep well, erm practise my vocals well and drink well(coz I can't drink cold drinks mah). And I'm really turning into a noctournal, I've been sleeping in odd hours again. I don't often drink coffee, and there's this saying that if u sleep less than 8 hours a day, you'll get frustrated easily. Which is something like a woman's pms. Sheesh. Anyway, tmr's the result of my module and I'm freaking scared. Totally. Coz for this semester, I have'nt been too keen in revising my work like I use to back in semester one. I've been slacking, which is something I normally dun do. But its true, and its a fact. And now, that fear of failing is getting in my nerves. And its killing me. I hope its not so bad either, coz I knew which modules are my worst and my best, in terms of result.Ok watever, I'm just being paranoid again.
So ya, other than that I really miss my poly friends. Been hanging out with my secondary schoolmates more than my poly mates. Which is totally not wat I've been doing last sem. But last sem I was kinda busy larh working, so there's not much difference. But I think I'll just have to wait for school to reopen again, I guess...
Man, this flu has been affecting my mum. Deeply and emotionally. And since I dun talk much nowadays, she thinks I'm getting distance to the family. And yesterday she asked why the sudden change. I just kept my silence, hoping she would just go away. I noe it sounds rude, but I can't even say a single word. And my head aches. Luckily it was a Sunday, and I had the whole day sleeping. I hope she's not mad at me, I now she does care for me. Which is something I had always treasure. But sometimes, loving someone does'nt always had to be said by words. Its more than just words.Its the action that speaks, and most of the time I did wat she had always wanted me to do. Well, if she were to ask for something, I will try finding it for her. Haiz, to me family is just as important as my friends. if I were to choose either one, I would still take my family with me. Becoz blood is just thicker than water. Becoz if I die tmr, Those who will arrange my death. Will be my family members. And those who were close to me. Goodness, why am I even thinking of death? Touch wood.
And when I recall the mourning of my late uncle, there were those who were his close friends crying for his death. There's this pakcik, who use to work near his old mahkota seafood restaurant, as a putu piring maker, shedding tears for him. And it touched me. It makes me realized how successful my abah has become. Not only in business, but also sociably. My God, its been months since his death but the memory is too vivid for me to forget. It was my worst day of my life...
Wassallam.
was rockin' on
Monday, March 20, 2006 and they said.. 
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